Having surgery 2-24-11 help

[anxiousme]

Hi everyone,
I hope I am posting in the right place, I am new to this sight but so thankful to have found it. I am scheduled for thyroid surgery on Thursday 2-24-11 2 days and counting. They are going to remove a suspicious nodule on the left side. I am so scared I have not slept since this all started on Jan. 17th. I am so scared to be put to sleep that I wont wake up, and all the risks. I was supposed to have this done last Monday and canceled do to cold. I really canceled do to nerves. This entire thing has just freaked me out. I don't want to do this. Please help me get through this. I cant sleep, eat, or even hear what people are saying to me. All I think about is this. I am consumed in this I am an anxious person anyway, but this has really done me in. Can anyone tell me about their experience please, anything to help me do this. My insurance runs out on Feb 28th so I have to go. Thank you for any help.

[Andros]

Hi everyone,
I hope I am posting in the right place, I am new to this sight but so thankful to have found it. I am scheduled for thyroid surgery on Thursday 2-24-11 2 days and counting. They are going to remove a suspicious nodule on the left side. I am so scared I have not slept since this all started on Jan. 17th. I am so scared to be put to sleep that I wont wake up, and all the risks. I was supposed to have this done last Monday and canceled do to cold. I really canceled do to nerves. This entire thing has just freaked me out. I don't want to do this. Please help me get through this. I cant sleep, eat, or even hear what people are saying to me. All I think about is this. I am consumed in this I am an anxious person anyway, but this has really done me in. Can anyone tell me about their experience please, anything to help me do this. My insurance runs out on Feb 28th so I have to go. Thank you for any help.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaw; I hear ya'!! I am so sorry that you are so anxious about all this! I can't fluff it off and tell you it is simple and not to worry but.............................

many here have had the surgery so I hope that in some way they can reassure you.

Do you have a spiritual life-line? That helps! Do you have a friend or spouse who will be there for you? Family member?

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I am positive that in a few days you will be here pumping out a post sharing your experience.

Focus on the good part. You are going to be on a healing pathway.

Here's a hug for you,
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[McKenna]

Aww...I'm sorry you're so anxious about the surgery.

I had my thyroid out almost 4 months ago. You can take comfort in that even though surgery is scary to us, these people do it on a daily basis. They have their procedures down like clockwork. I was nervous too, which is a normal reaction.

Do you have someone who can go with you to the hospital? I had a lot of attention from the nursing staff and a nurse anesthetist stayed with me the whole time, talking to me and my husband. He even came to see me in my room later that afternoon. There will be people there to watch over you and make sure you're ok.

I pray your mind is eased over the next two days and your surgery goes well. If you have any specific questions about the surgery or recovery just ask. There are quite a few of us who have had it.

[anxiousme]

Thank you so much for your help, my husband, and best friend will be will be with me. I don't know that I can do this. My mind is racing with the what if's. I have 4 children that still need me, please let be ok. I am convinced that this is it. Dumb nodule. I have had the nodule for 4 years, every yr. it has been fine, this year it grew, and they did the biopsy, ever since then I have been a mess. Thank you so much I will swear by all of your words to try to get through this Thank god I found you guys!

[McKenna]

What was the result of the biopsy? Are they only removing the left lobe?

It will be ok. Just hang in there and it will be over before you know it.

[Andros]

Thank you so much for your help, my husband, and best friend will be will be with me. I don't know that I can do this. My mind is racing with the what if's. I have 4 children that still need me, please let be ok. I am convinced that this is it. Dumb nodule. I have had the nodule for 4 years, every yr. it has been fine, this year it grew, and they did the biopsy, ever since then I have been a mess. Thank you so much I will swear by all of your words to try to get through this Thank god I found you guys!

We are glad you are here w/us and one way or the other, we will send white light, good karma, prayers.......................whatever works.

Yes; your children need you and they will have you!

[anxiousme]

Thank you again please stick by my I have to get through this. My results were suspicious for follicular neoplasm, and yes they are just removing the left lobe for now, until proven. Then they will do the other half if it comes back the C word. I don't think I can do this one time , I pray not 2 times. Am I gonna make it through this? What will I feel like if I do. My thyroid levels are perfect, and now I petrified they will be all out of whack. Sorry to bother you, I am so thankful for you two, thank you.

[seastan67]

Hi Anxious me!, I am awaiting surgery also on my left thyroid and also feel very anxious about the whole thing..... However have you considered how anxious you may feel if you choose not to have surgery and in time are wondering about this nodule inside you and if it has turned cancerous or not.....???????????
I have had to have brain surgery in the past and I can tell you that was the most frightening thing I have ever been through, I pleaded with the surgeon to look after me as I too have children that need me.
Bottom line of what I am trying to say to you is that to do right by your children you need to get to the bottom of the problem and to do that and get to the other side of this thyroid issue you will have to have the surgery. I found this site also when I was going out of my mind trying to find information on the internet etc....
Just think clearly and promise the next time you are thinking of not having the surgery , that you need to find out for sure and get it treated for your children, I will be thinking of you while you have your surgery and I await my surgery, which will be done soon in the outback town of Darwin in the Northern Territory of Australia. STAY STRONG, THINK ABOUT AFTERWARDS BECAUSE THERE WILL BE AN AFTERWARDS XXXXXXXXXX

[anxiousme]

Dear seastan67,
I am so lucky to have read your advice. I am gonna try so hard to do this. I try so hard to think of just coming home, and seeing everyone's faces, even the dog. Thank you for sticking by me. Thank you for the encouragement. This is what I will bring with me on Thursday. So anxious for the call tomorrow night about the time of surgery. I am so sorry that you had such major surgery before, and if I make it through this I will be there every step of the way for you, of your surgery. When do you think you will go. Do you have the same thing as me?

[seastan67]

Hi anxious me! I have a large tumour around the 3cm mark which I discovered a couple of months ago, have had all the tests etc but they are all normal aprt from some cells found in the fna and also that the results from the ultrasound are not good, so they are going to take out the left side of the tyhroid for now send it for proper testing and then decide what to do next. I guess its a process of elimination. I have been told I could wait anything from 2 to 8 weeks and am on the urgent waiting list , so I just have my mobile phone with me and await the call..... Its very depressing isnt it.... At the moment I am just trying to enjoy the simple things in life and when the time comes I will drag my sorry arse into the hospital and let them do the surgery. Not for myself but so my children still have a mother and thats the way I view the whole thing. you simply cannot leave the thyroid in there if there is any possible chance of cancer. And hey its not all that bad , look forward to the fuss your kids will make over you while you are getting better:) they might even do as they are told for once lol.... stay in touch and PM me if you wat to , or you can email me directly at the following seastan67@yahoo.com.au..... dont you dare chicken out.......x

[seastan67]

Sorry forgot to mention my name, its Tanya:)

[lavender]

My surgery was in August. Things were a bit trickey for me after surgery, and it took a while to get my thyroid replacement straightened out. But I feel so much better now, and I am so glad I did it. My thyroid was sick and it was making me sick. I know the thought of surgery can be scary, but your surgeon and the entire team that will be working with you knows what they are doing. You will be in good hands, and you will make it through this.

I really like to do visualization when I am freaked out about a medical procedure. I was really freaked about a root canal once, and envisioned God working through the dentist, removing the infection from my body and I could feel myself being held and cradled by God. It really helped because I had to be awake for the procedure, and I was able to stay calm.

When I went in for my surgery, I had people praying for me, and even though I was scared, I could trust that everything was going to be alright because God was there to take care of me. I really think it was my spirituality that helped me get through everything. Your thyroid is the shape of a butterfly, and I kept seeing butterflies everywhere around the time of my surgery. It was a sign that having my thyroid removed was a part of my metamorphisis into something even more beautiful and spectacular than I could have imagined before.

Just remember to keep breathing!

[anxiousme]

Dear Seastan,
I wish you were here with me, all night I was up on and off. I will be up all night long tonight, knowing this is it. i think I am going to have a nervous breakdown before I even get in there. I just put my 14 year old on the bus. (well watched him, he's to cool now for me to stand there with him) He's the one I am really worried about he's my baby. I am worried for the other 3 also but they are 24, 22, and 21. I know they would be ok. In time. I hate this. I don't want to do this. I feel like I should put a sticky note on saying make sure you give me oxygen. My daughter says they will think your a nut, I said there going to know I am a nut. Can they even operate when your this nervous. Thank you so much for all your support.

[anxiousme]

Tanya, I don't know how I missed that, thank you. My name is Debbi, and I am so glad to have met you.
Dear Lavender, I keep repeating myself, but thank you so much for the kind words. I will swear by them. I teach, and one of my aids is very spiritual she printed the best prayer for me ever. I bring it everywhere with me, but you read it right before you go. I just want to be home in my bed, in my purple pjs. I've been dealing with this bump for 4 yrs. First fna was fine then the last couple yrs. just ultra sounds, this yr. it grew, and the fna was suspicious, and here we go. So many other sm. issues going on also, that I think i'm just gonna crack. Can you tell me about your surgery, were you as scared as me, were you afraid to put to sleep for 3 hrs. thats long! Why does it take so long? Did you stay at the hospital? they say 1 night. Sorry to bug ya, just a wreck.

[anxiousme]

Dear Seastan,
I wish you were here with me, all night I was up on and off. I will be up all night long tonight, knowing this is it. i think I am going to have a nervous breakdown before I even get in there. I just put my 14 year old on the bus. (well watched him, he's to cool now for me to stand there with him) He's the one I am really worried about he's my baby. I am worried for the other 3 also but they are 24, 22, and 21. I know they would be ok. In time. I hate this. I don't want to do this. I feel like I should put a sticky note on saying make sure you give me oxygen. My daughter says they will think your a nut, I said there going to know I am a nut. Can they even operate when your this nervous. Thank you so much for all your support.

[Andros]

Thank you again please stick by my I have to get through this. My results were suspicious for follicular neoplasm, and yes they are just removing the left lobe for now, until proven. Then they will do the other half if it comes back the C word. I don't think I can do this one time , I pray not 2 times. Am I gonna make it through this? What will I feel like if I do. My thyroid levels are perfect, and now I petrified they will be all out of whack. Sorry to bother you, I am so thankful for you two, thank you.

If your thyroid goes out of whack, you will get on meds and get it back on track. One worry at a time is the best way to go here!

[seastan67]

Hi there anxious me!
Sorry for my time delay in replying... Its becuase I am on the other side of the world- however I am still here. By the time you read this you will be getting very close to going to the hospital. Hey another thing we have in common I have a 14 year old boy also. (what an handfull) I no longer get kisses when I drop him off at school! and he always walks 10 paces behind me anywhere we go in public lol... You should tell your kids how you are feeling I think you will be suprised at the level of understanding and support from them.
You jjust have to do this, remember 3 hours is nothing when your out for the count... All you will remember is when they are putting you to sleep and the next thing you remember will be waking up. trust me on this .... Now please... one thing at a time...... and stop thinking about it all, just do it all in steps ..STEP ONE: GO TO THE HOSPITAL.... ETC.... Dont make me come over there and smack you:tongue0015:

[seastan67]

and another thing..... My thyroid has balloned over the past 2 days , I am goingto go back to the hospital today and see about getting it done sooner, I am that conerned about it.... So we may very well be getting surgery at the same time..... dont forget to stay in touch on the other side. I want to know how it ll went cheers... Tanya

[lavender]

I was nervous, but not as nervous as you seem. I was so sick, I just wanted the darn thing out, and was willing to go to whatever length was necessary. The doctors are keeping you under for so long because they need to take their time and do the job right. Thyroid removal is very fine microsurgery, and you do not want a rushed surgeon that close to your vocal chords! Sending you prayers for tomorrow.

[anxiousme]

aww I love you guys, I am really freaking out. It's only 9:00 at night now, and my heart is going. I am petrified. Tanya I cant believe you have a 14 yr. old. I feel like I've been friends with you awhile, and it's only been a day. Thank you so much. I hope I can do this, really freaking out! Thank you again, i guess the next time I talk to you guys will be Friday. Hopefully! Oh yeah, I go at 11:30, and surgery is for 2:00 thats so long not to have a drink, or anything. I really don't like this.

[anxiousme]

I typed this message once but I dont know were it went. Tanya even know I am a wreck right now please know that I will be thinking of you. Please let me know how you made out at the hospital, and know that I will be there for you, just as you were for me.
Debbi

[seastan67]

Hey Deb!
I went ot the hosptial but there is little than can do other than reassure me that I am on the waiting list as urgent , so me for me its just waiting and more waiting..... Please dont rush to get back on here after surgery , make sure you feeling up to it afterwards. But I for one will be very keen to speak to you after surgery knowing that I am still waiting for mine.... After this I think we will have to swap stories pics etc.... funny how you meet friends isnt it ,, stay strong and once again dont you DARE chicken out , or I will come over there and smack you one lolhugs1

[seastan67]

Hi Debbie, Ok its 7pm here in Darwin Australia, I have had a pretty crappy day... You on the other hand are about to wake up and go and have surgery. Now listen to me when I say I am with you, we are going through the same thing..... Your going to be a great help to me after all of this as I am still waiting to have my surgery.......... Think happy thoughts and remember what I have said about why you should have the surgery, this is your ultimate test in life , show us all what you are made of xxx hugs ,kisses and love all going your way Tanya xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx:anim_26:

[Andros]

I typed this message once but I dont know were it went. Tanya even know I am a wreck right now please know that I will be thinking of you. Please let me know how you made out at the hospital, and know that I will be there for you, just as you were for me.
Debbi

Debbie! Wishing you all the best today. Please let us know how you are doing.

Sending prayers and good thoughts!

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[desrtbloom]

You can do it!!!!! It is not at all as bad as you are probably thinking in your mind. Our minds can play horrible tricks on us and conjur up things and cause us to have extreme irrational fears. Yes, surgery is scary, but your physician is experienced and has done many of these procedures and he will take excellent care of you. Also, why not ask for a valium to take before you even get to the hospital to help you relax. I'm sure if you call the doctor's office they will prescribe you something to help settle you down.

It will be fine! You will get through it and be so very glad you did. :hugs:

Patti

[anxiousme]

oh what a day, still not done, went down there and freaked out the entire time. They were so good to me, that I know when I go back I am in good hands. 3 1/2 hrs. of them trying to help me calm down. I couldn't do it. My husband was gonna kill me. My Doctor is the best, the last thing was, get dressed you are not in danger, yes, we have to do it, but not today, I want you to talk to someone here, to get you through this. So looks like within the month. I'm very disappointed in myself to go that far, and bail out. But I'm a mess. I thank you for your support, and you really make me laugh when no one else could. I want to keep in touch please, sorry I wasted your time. I will be thinking of you, and hope it happens for you soon. I know you will be fine. Its me that wont. Thank you again,
Debbi

[Andros]

oh what a day, still not done, went down there and freaked out the entire time. They were so good to me, that I know when I go back I am in good hands. 3 1/2 hrs. of them trying to help me calm down. I couldn't do it. My husband was gonna kill me. My Doctor is the best, the last thing was, get dressed you are not in danger, yes, we have to do it, but not today, I want you to talk to someone here, to get you through this. So looks like within the month. I'm very disappointed in myself to go that far, and bail out. But I'm a mess. I thank you for your support, and you really make me laugh when no one else could. I want to keep in touch please, sorry I wasted your time. I will be thinking of you, and hope it happens for you soon. I know you will be fine. Its me that wont. Thank you again,
Debbi

Are you saying you did not have the surgery? Are you okay; mighty worried about you!!

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[seastan67]

Debbie , Please contact me on my private email seastan67@yahoo.com.au if I can be of any help to you. I am sorry to hear that you are having these issues and if I can help at all would like you to know that I am here..... Tanya:confused0068:

[Lovlkn]

For gosh sake- ask for some anxiety pills such as Lorazapam. I took them the week before my surgery and would have been freaking out as you did if I did not have them.

5 years post op and I still feel like I made the right decision. Surgery has made my life normal - now what to do with these teen age boys I live with?

ASK FOR SOME PILLS to CHILL you out.

[anxiousme]

No, I did not go through with it, I freaked out. Doc was very understanding, going to try again in March. He says I'm not in danger, but it has to come out. Please hang in there with me. Tanya my buddy I have the biggest headache, can you just come to Pennsylvania, and I will give you my spot. He is voted top doc, and fox chase cancer center is huge. Feel better about the entire staff, that was 1 nightmare for me thinking of what they were like. Now I know everything that they will do to me till the moment of surgery, I think I can do that part, it's the going to sleep. Need to get past that part. Thank you all once again! Tanya my new found friend, I am thinking of you so much! We will talk, and someday share our stories! Debbi

[seastan67]

I would Deb but I dont have a passport. I am only in the public health system here in Darwin Australia and reliant on free hosptial treatment only so I dont get a choice of doctors or anything like that...
So it sounds like you went through the whole process of getting ready for surgery etc , right up untill the went to put you under>?
Is that when you yelled stop , I cant do this etc....? Poor thing. I know how hard it is to put your total life in someone elses hands, that part is not easy, but give them some credit the do this all the time. Hopefully they will be able to counsell you before the operation. I still have not heard when mine is going to be... just that it will be in the next 4 to 8 weeks... Anyhow stay in touch via this or my email, cheers Tanya. Get plenty of rest, watch a movie, your favourite one:hugs:

[lavender]

Sounds like your docs made a good decision for now. I don't usually recommend meds, but if this is that overwhelming to you that it has had to be postponed twice, meds + therapy might just be what you need. I think you are in good hands with your docs.

[Andros]

No, I did not go through with it, I freaked out. Doc was very understanding, going to try again in March. He says I'm not in danger, but it has to come out. Please hang in there with me. Tanya my buddy I have the biggest headache, can you just come to Pennsylvania, and I will give you my spot. He is voted top doc, and fox chase cancer center is huge. Feel better about the entire staff, that was 1 nightmare for me thinking of what they were like. Now I know everything that they will do to me till the moment of surgery, I think I can do that part, it's the going to sleep. Need to get past that part. Thank you all once again! Tanya my new found friend, I am thinking of you so much! We will talk, and someday share our stories! Debbi

Debbi; bless your heart!! I wish we could all come in person and walk you through this but alas; we cannot.

So, we can only be with you in spirit and we most certainly are.

Whatever we can do to help from afar, you can count on us!

[kpn_chin_up]

I read through this thread, and since our timelines are similar and I've just been through a TT I'm happy to share my experience with you... hopefully it can assuage some of your fears. Feel free to PM or post if you like

KCU

[anxiousme]

Dear Kpn,
Thank you so much, please tell me how you feel, and how it went I have to get through this. I am hoping the more I know the more comfortable I will be.
Thank you, Debbi

[anxiousme]

I wish you could all be with me also. What a nice feeling to know I have some really good people here with me. How do we keep in touch? Do I keep writing on here? Not really good at this stuff, I was so desperate for help to get through this, I posted anywhere on here that would show up, thank goodness the first one worked and I found you guys! Tanya I hope you are doing good, please let me know what happens, I'm thinking of you.

[seastan67]

Hi Deb! I am good still waiting, I am a good waiter lol.. just hanging about at home watching movies waiting for a phone call. Please give me a private email address so we dont loose contact or email me first at seastan67@yahoo.com.au yes your so right everyone on here is fabulous and such a great support. So dont forget to keep us all updated etc... cheers Tanya

[Andros]

I wish you could all be with me also. What a nice feeling to know I have some really good people here with me. How do we keep in touch? Do I keep writing on here? Not really good at this stuff, I was so desperate for help to get through this, I posted anywhere on here that would show up, thank goodness the first one worked and I found you guys! Tanya I hope you are doing good, please let me know what happens, I'm thinking of you.

You are doing great on the posting. It is advisable to stay on one thread so that we have your details handy to refresh our memories in our effort to be helpful!

I believe we have an awesome board here w/ a great group of very helpful and caring folks.

[kpn_chin_up]

Dear Kpn,
Thank you so much, please tell me how you feel, and how it went I have to get through this. I am hoping the more I know the more comfortable I will be.
Thank you, Debbi

Check out my thread on the Thyroid Surgery section, where I explain my experience in detail. The first day was not pleasant :sick0012:, but it gets much better from there. Get some courage, and you'll be back to normal in no time! :party0036:

[seastan67]

Good luck for Tuesday Debbie!!! you will go wont you>?>?>?hugs1

[anxiousme]

Omg Tanya, I was going to write to you today to make sure you were still with me hugs3 I had to cancel, I'm not sure if you remember my insurance was up on Feb. 28th, going through some paper work, and then I will be back in business. The hospital is great! They sent paper work for financial aid, so hopefully this month,and hopefully I am eligible I've been thinking of ya. Have you heard anything new? How do you feel. You ok? I will keep you posted def. should be this month, and yes I am going to go. Not in any rush though. lol :hugs: Debbi

[seastan67]

Of course Im still with you Deb lol........ hugs6 although I might have to start taking some anti depressant tablets as well as I am not coping with the waiting thing...... I HATE waiting... Seems like my whole life is WAITING for something at the moment...... At least I still have my sense of humour:anim_26:

[anxiousme]

Tanya, you have a great sense of humor! Like I said many times before glad I met ya. Hold your head up, you are so strong, and everyday that goes by, you are one step closer to getting done. I am avoiding it, and you can't wait. Now there's a team. lol. Let me know anything that happens k? hugs3 Debbi

[kpn_chin_up]

Debbi,

Just want to say that I hope your financial assistance gets approved... I know that you are dreading the surgery, but its really not that bad, and you will be back on your feet in no time. I went back to work 9 days after the surgery. And I sleep better knowing that I don't have a walnut sized tumor growing in my neck :)...

Now just onto the RAI :(

[anxiousme]

Thank you so much for sticking by me, it means alot. Hopefully I will here something this week. Now I'm getting to the point that I just want it done. I am so glad you are doing so well. I'm jealous I cant wait until I am were you are. hugs4

[seastan67]

Hey Deb, bit soon I know because its not the end of the week yet.. but have you heard anything>? :tongue0015:

[anxiousme]

Grrrrrrrrr. not yet! Hopefully soon. I'm starting to know how you feel, about the waiting it's not fun! Hope your wait is not much longer, and I hope your hanging in there! Thanks for sticking with me. Debbi

[seastan67]

Hello, just checking in lol....... Luv tan xxxx

[anxiousme]

I'm so glad you did, i've been thinking of ya. I was going to check in on you. I haven't heard anything on the paper work yet. grrrrrr. I am supposed to meet with the surgeon on Tuesday, and I might have to reschedule. This guy is gonna kill me. Hope not. Na they know whats happening. Have you heard anything, and how are you? Hanging in there I hope.

[seastan67]

Hi Deb, any news this past week>? I have been back at work as I thought this might take my mind of things while I am waiting for surgery. Hope you got your medical insurance sorted and that you are now heading back to see the doc, of course he will not kill you silly , hes a surgeon LOLhugs6

[Andros]

Hi Deb, any news this past week>? I have been back at work as I thought this might take my mind of things while I am waiting for surgery. Hope you got your medical insurance sorted and that you are now heading back to see the doc, of course he will not kill you silly , hes a surgeon LOLhugs6

Hi Tanya!! When is your surgery; I forgot?? How have you been feeling?

[anxiousme]

Hi guys. still haven't heard anything on financial aid. Looks like I will have to make some phone calls tomm. and ruffle some feathers lol. I've been feeling really sick lately too. Don't know if its nerves, thyroid, or both. I'm ready to get this over with now, especially if that's whats making me feel so bad. Tanya have you heard anything on surgery, and how are you feeling? I feel like this lump is getting bigger, and I'm not liking that. Debbi ihugs3

[dgrayson6]

Hi anxiousme! I was diagnosed with metastatic papillary thyroid cancer on Jan 21st, had my whole thyroid removed Feb 2nd along with a bunch of cancerous lymph nodes on the right side of my neck. I'm currently in isolation as I took radioactive iodine on Wednesday the 16th. I am fine!!! And you will be too. Thyroid cancer is not a death sentence. So even if that is what ends up being found, it is scary, it is crappy, it will make you cry and scared and upset. Show it, feel it, let it out. I sleep a lot, but I am in my last semester in college and working on the most important project of my entire educational career, and I found an amazing ThyCa support group locally, and have an amazing husband to help me through this. I will be here for you, too! You are not alone. You can e-mail me directly also dgrayson6 @ gmail.com (separated to prevent spamming). :) You can do it!!!!!!!!

[seastan67]

Debb your scaring me , my lump also seems to have grown as well..... what are the odds.... Do you think if we both get passed this we should buy a loto ticket and then when we win, hire a yacht supplied with a bunch of greek men to sail us naked accross the med>?? ha ha lol.... got keep laughing otherwise I would cry... hurry up and have the surgery already I am relying on you to let me know what its like.... I rang the hosptial today still no change still around a 3 month wait , so its been a month now another 2 months roughly to go... I might be an alcoholic by then ,,,,,hugs6, did time suddenly slow down,<>?><?<>?<>?

[seastan67]

:party0009:I am just trying to beat your score on the number of replies lol

[anxiousme]

Hi dgrayson6 I'm so sorry you had to go through all that you did, and what you are still doing. Thank you for sharing your story with me. It means a lot :hugs: I'm lucky to have met all of you, and I will probably take you up on that e-mail my nerves are so shot. Please keep in touch and let me know how you are doing k?
Tanya my buddy, we are going to take off somewhere when we get this past this SHHHHHHHHHHHH. You crack me up! And YES this is going to drive us to drink, and drink. lol.
Maybe we will meet half way. We will compare scars. hugs1 So I called, and the paperwork is in the process. Should know pretty soon. Then I go, freakkkkkkkkkking out. I'll let you know as soon as I know. Debbi

Whats that another reply lol :tongue0015:

[seastan67]

It means I am trying to beat the number oF replys you get to your thread/POST, your on 56, and I have 49 replys to my thread/POST. LOL

[anxiousme]

I knew what you meant silly, I just added another one. Hope ya have a good day, or should I say night, cause I'm just getting up, so your probably just going to sleep. :hugs:

[seastan67]

Hi Debb, Yes we are opposite, what town do you live in , I live in Darwin Australia so the time difference is like you say when I am getting up your going to bed.... So.......... Yes It seems that I want to get my surgery done and you are putting yours off..... BUT you are going to go through with it this time arent you.............:scared0011: Dont make me come over there.....

[anxiousme]

Hey Tanya,
I live in the US, Bucks County Pennsylvania. So that's the Eastern side, eastern time. There is even a time difference from me to the western side, like California. 6 hrs. So I know me and you are so different. I'm probably up though when your waking, I don't sleep well at all. Maybe when this is all over I will sleep again someday, but for now it stinks. Still know nothing on insurance, the wait is still on, and its giving me a huge headache, but should be really soon now. How ya feeling? Oh yeah I keep forgetting to ask you about Uggs, my daughter loves them and they are really expensive here. Are they expensive over there? Thanks.
Debbi hugs3

[Z mann R2]

Debbi,

I know people have said this before but don't worry, it's a super easy procedure. I had mine done two weeks ago....first on a monday, on just the right side due to a 6cm nodule, then 5 days later on a Friday I went back in to remove the left side because the biopsy of the nodule showed follicular carcinoma......that was two weeks ago today when the entire thyroid was removed and I've been back at work since monday this week.....I didn't even fill my perscription for pain medication as tylenol was all I needed......its a cake walk trust me!!

I don't care how scared you are GET THAT THING OUT OF YOU! If I had not quickly removed it the cancer could have spread....and noone thought it would be cancerous. The needle biopsy, the sonogram, the CT scan, and the surgeon himself feeling it all showed it to be benign. But until they remove it completely they never truely know. And in my case it was cancer after all signs showed it not to be. I'm thankful I went in and did it and caught it....and guess what, I'm only 28 and I'm a male. Even less likely that it would happen to me but it did

Buck up and get in there......best of luck! I'll be praying for you!

-Tim

p.s. sorry for being so blunt....I'm a Texan and down here coddling and hugs n kisses isn't what gets things done....I feel sometimes you gotta be told whats up straight up and how it is to get people rolling to do the right thing....take care!

[Andros]

Debbi,

I know people have said this before but don't worry, it's a super easy procedure. I had mine done two weeks ago....first on a monday, on just the right side due to a 6cm nodule, then 5 days later on a Friday I went back in to remove the left side because the biopsy of the nodule showed follicular carcinoma......that was two weeks ago today when the entire thyroid was removed and I've been back at work since monday this week.....I didn't even fill my perscription for pain medication as tylenol was all I needed......its a cake walk trust me!!

I don't care how scared you are GET THAT THING OUT OF YOU! If I had not quickly removed it the cancer could have spread....and noone thought it would be cancerous. The needle biopsy, the sonogram, the CT scan, and the surgeon himself feeling it all showed it to be benign. But until they remove it completely they never truely know. And in my case it was cancer after all signs showed it not to be. I'm thankful I went in and did it and caught it....and guess what, I'm only 28 and I'm a male. Even less likely that it would happen to me but it did

Buck up and get in there......best of luck! I'll be praying for you!

-Tim

p.s. sorry for being so blunt....I'm a Texan and down here coddling and hugs n kisses isn't what gets things done....I feel sometimes you gotta be told whats up straight up and how it is to get people rolling to do the right thing....take care!

Blunt is good it comes to a lot of things; especially cancer! Thank you so much for being here and sharing your experience. I am sure you will help others and may even save a life.....................or two, or three etc..

[anxiousme]

Hey Tim,
First I have to say cool name! My sons name is Timmy, and I love Texas! Thank you so much, your story has given me much hope. I'm petrified! More of going to sleep, than anything. Big phobia! I am so glad everything has turned out great for you, and that you feel really good. Make sure you give that wife of yours a big :hugs: she deserves it, for finding that lump. It is people like you that will get me through this. Again I am really glad you are doing so well. Keep in touch and let me know how your doing ok. Thank you again Debbi

[anxiousme]

Hi guys! Just an update, I'm insured, meet with Doc, and psychologist next. Monday 4-4-11. Then we will schedule. I'm going to ask for 4-18-11, I have a wedding on the 16th, and I want to live to see it. Lol. He operates on Mon, and Fri., and I need a week to prepare. NERVES.

[seastan67]

Hi Deb its me!!!! Guess what HOORAY!!! Finally some progress!!! I think my little display at the hospital on Monday afternoon may have done some good , I have been called back to the ENT Clinic on Thursday so see the specialists about getting my surgery done sooner will keep you posted......:party0006:

[anxiousme]

Tanya, I'm so happy for you, I thought going to the ER might push things along. How ya feeling? I'm getting so nervous already for next wk. I'll be glad when this is over, and I'm sure you will too! I will crack up if we go in at the same time. Good luck let me know. Oh yeah, I go Tuesday not Monday. hugs4
Debbi

[JoJo]

Hey Debbi.. just read through your posts here and I see you do have your surgery coming up (I had asked in my post) :) You've made it this far darlin'.. I'm sure all will go well as these are professionals we're dealing with!!

I can't get over all the docs involved.. endo, ENT, oncologists, etc. I have my appointment for the thyroid test Monday and Tuesday and the more I read here, the more I'm ready to just schedule surgery. It isn't the most comfortable of things to think about going through that's for sure. At least we have this forum so that we can talk with others who've been there, are there, and can keep us positive about this road we're following.
:hugs:

[lavender]

I think you will come through the surgery just fine. Death from thyroidectomy is extremely rare. I don't know the statistics, but I suspect the chance of death from cancer and not having the surgery is a whole lot higher.

I'm not usually an advocate for drugs, but if your anxiety level is too high when you go in for surgery, anti-anxiety meds can help to calm your nerves so that you can go ahead with the surgery that may ultimately save your life. You may want to ask the doc to prescribe something for you to take before you go in.

I didn't have cancer, and I know that my thyroid surgery was a blessing and has given me my life back. It may be unpleasant, but you can get through this!

[anxiousme]

Hi guys, Thanks for all the support. I'm fine with the decision to remove part of the thyroid, and the rollercoaster that is in store for me afterward. I value my Doctor's opinion on that, and I want it out. explode My problem is the phobia of getting put to sleep, and not waking up, that freaks me out more than anything. I'm petrified!!!!!! :sad0049: All I can say is I'm going, and I think my husband, and 4 kids, will knock me out this time if they have too. lol to make sure I get this done. I am very lucky to have lots of family, and friends that care so much, and to have all of you. :hugs: thank you, and within 2-3 wks this will all be behind me. I hope. hugs1 Debbi

[lavender]

Talk with the anestesiologist ahead of time. You will wake up. You will get through this. The last thing you want is to be awake while they slice open your neck. The docs are well trained and know what they are doing when they put you under.

[anxiousme]

Dear Lavender, I did talk to them, on 2-24-11 I was in my gown, getting all set up, and freaked. 2 or 3 hrs. of them trying to help me get over it. Didn't work. I'm petrified. My surgeon was like "look we're not going to do this today, I want you to talk to our psychologist here, and then meet back with me!" He goes you better come back, or I'm comin for ya. So I meet with both of them on Tuesday, and we will schedule from there. It's a major phobia, I feel like a pet when then put them to sleep, they really put them to sleep. I'm not ready for that kind of sleep yet. lol

[lavender]

Sounds like the phobia is pretty bad. It never occurred to me that we use the same language "being put to sleep" for mechanizing and animal and going under anesthesia. They are not the same thing. Maybe it would help to have different language. You will be going in for a controlled nap. You will wake up. You will survive.

I hope the psychologist has been able to help you work through this fear because it sounds like you really need the surgery. I like to use meditation and visualization when I am freaked out about a medical procedure. When I had my surgery, I was missing an event with a group of women I sing with. I had asked them to hold me in their thoughts, and when I went to sleep, I envisioned myself in the middle of the circle with them all singing to me. I woke up and everything was fine. I am sure it will be the same for you.

[anxiousme]

Great idea, thank you. Anything to get through at this point. I know what I have to do, and I am going to do it, I just have to face the fear. Thanks, Debbi

[Andros]

Hi guys, Thanks for all the support. I'm fine with the decision to remove part of the thyroid, and the rollercoaster that is in store for me afterward. I value my Doctor's opinion on that, and I want it out. explode My problem is the phobia of getting put to sleep, and not waking up, that freaks me out more than anything. I'm petrified!!!!!! :sad0049: All I can say is I'm going, and I think my husband, and 4 kids, will knock me out this time if they have too. lol to make sure I get this done. I am very lucky to have lots of family, and friends that care so much, and to have all of you. :hugs: thank you, and within 2-3 wks this will all be behind me. I hope. hugs1 Debbi

If we could do it; all of us would be there for you on 4/4. However, we will send good Karma, good thoughts and prayers! As well as many hugs.

All of us will be anxiously awaiting hearing from you when you are able.

[anxiousme]

Dear Andros, You kind words are the best. hugs3 I only meet with them on the 4th, and I get the surgery date then. I've made this out to be quite an ordeal.
I'm lucky they haven't thrown in the towel, and said forget this nut case. But they have been very understanding, apparently I'm not the only one, and there not giving up on me. Thank you Debbi

[Andros]

Dear Andros, You kind words are the best. hugs3 I only meet with them on the 4th, and I get the surgery date then. I've made this out to be quite an ordeal.
I'm lucky they haven't thrown in the towel, and said forget this nut case. But they have been very understanding, apparently I'm not the only one, and there not giving up on me. Thank you Debbi

Thank you for clarifying! Hey; we never throw in the towel around here!! LOL!!

Let us know of the surgery date when you get it all set up!

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[anxiousme]

Thank goodness! hugs4 I will definitely let you know, I will be a basket case, and will need much support. Thank you. Debbi

[seastan67]

Hi Debb, I have been back to the Doc and he has agree to hurry things along, looking at last week in April or First week in May.Any news with you yet<>?<:tongue0015:

[anxiousme]

Tanya, I am so excited for you! hugs4 I'm telling you we are going to be doing this thing at the same time.....How ironic. I will be so glad when it is over for both of us. How are you feeling? I will know everything on Tuesday, so I will let you know k. hugs1 Debbi

[seastan67]

Hey Deb, The powers that be(the universe) have mysterious ways! Of course its on the cards we will be having surgery at the same time..... I still want you to promise me you will go through with the surgery that your doctor suggests for you this time, in order for us to get to the other side of this you need to follow through with surgery. I dont like being( put to sleep either) but will do what I must , as I only have to gaze in my 14 year old sons eyes to know he needs me more than ever for now and in the future... Does this make sense to you Debbie, You need to get through this for your children and put your self doubts to one side. If you are anything like me then you already know your children come first. When your lying on the table ready to be put to sleep think of this, becuase the power of love between a mother and child is what will pull you through.... Promise me Debb I am counting on you, and I am so glad to have been envolved in helping you get through this very difficult time ,, xx Tan:anim_26: Please Debb put your trust in all the love that is around you. xx

[SnoodMama]

Have they suggested any kind of sedatives or anti-anxiety medication? Sorry if you already mentioned this. I popped in a few weeks ago and then again now and admit I haven't read all of this thread. The anti-anxiety medication helps me a lot. I take a boat load of meds.... Effexor, Buspar, Klonopin and beta-blockers after having a horrible depression/anxiety last year. I'm all better now and may consider tapering down on my meds. So, it doesn't have to be permanent. It helped me tremendously and hasn't changed my personality (except for making me able to work and function and sleep at night). Anyway, just wondering if you've considered meds. Sorry again if you already discussed this. My husband has needle phobia and fear of any medical procedure whatsoever so I've seen how bad the panic can be. He has also avoided treatments that he needed. But, there's nothing I can do but be supportive. (((HUGS))) to you. I'm really sorry you've ended up in this situation you must feel trapped. (((HUGS)))

[anxiousme]

Dear Snoodmama, I appreciate you so much for your kind words, I really needed that. I have much support, but yet feel so alone.:sad0049: I will most certainly need to take something this time. I have to do this. I really needed your post, to realize I am not the only one with a phobia in this world, and I can do this .Thank you again for sharing that with me. The last couple of months have been really hard for me. I don't know if its depression/anxiety/thyroid symptoms.....all of the above, or me making myself sick. don't want to do anything, really tired, sleep allot, heart races, etc. I go Tuesday to meet with the Doc's, and I will have a date shortly after that. Then the real panic will set in. Thank you so much! Debbi hugs3

[seastan67]

HI DEBB ITS ME TANYA***NEWS FLASH***** I GOT A CALL FROM THE HOSPITAL AND AM HAVING MY SURGERY TOMMORROW, THATS THE 5TH OF APRIL- NOW I AM NERVOUS AS HELL.. WILL MESSAGE YOU WHEN I AM HOME AGAIN.... LOVE TANYA:hugs:

[anxiousme]

Good thing I read your post first, or I would of been sooooooooooooooo nervous for you. (but happy for you also) I'm sorry it did not go through, but it will happen soon. I'm praying for ya. hugs2 Keep in touch, I go tomm. to find out date. I'll let you know.

[Andros]

HI DEBB ITS ME TANYA***NEWS FLASH***** I GOT A CALL FROM THE HOSPITAL AND AM HAVING MY SURGERY TOMMORROW, THATS THE 5TH OF APRIL- NOW I AM NERVOUS AS HELL.. WILL MESSAGE YOU WHEN I AM HOME AGAIN.... LOVE TANYA:hugs:

Wishing you all the best today! You are in my thoughts and prayers!! You are a real trooper and I just know that ultimately you will fine. More that fine as you will be on the pathway to wellness.

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[seastan67]

Hi Deb, Have not seen you reply to any messages and was wondering how you got on at the surgeons this week, I have been booked in to have my operation on the 15 April. Please let me know whats happening with you I am concerned about you. Kind regards Tan:hugs: Dont forget we are doingthis together xxxx

[anxiousme]

Hey Tanya I'm still here with you. hugs1 I am so excited for you. I will be thinking of you so much , and I am keeping my fingers crossed that, they don't cancel that on ya. I met with both Doctors on Tuesday, and he says the plan is still the same. It has to go! (like I didn't know!) I can pick any Mon. or Thurs. this month, or early May. But he strongly recommends that I go to the shrink a couple more times, so that I am calm. So def. shooting for the end of the month. 1st wk. in may. No rush here. They also gave me meds. to try at home, so see if it takes the edge off. So we will still kinda be going through this together, (you go first) lol. and let me know. :tongue0015: I'm always thinking of you, so keep in touch, k. Debbi

[seastan67]

Ok Deb I will go first lol, Glad to hear the doctors have you taking meds and talking to someone hugs3

[anxiousme]

Hey Tan, aren't you supposed to be sleeping right now? Are you ok? Just checking on ya. Debbi hugs3

[lavender]

Dear Snoodmama, I appreciate you so much for your kind words, I really needed that. I have much support, but yet feel so alone.:sad0049: I will most certainly need to take something this time. I have to do this. I really needed your post, to realize I am not the only one with a phobia in this world, and I can do this .Thank you again for sharing that with me. The last couple of months have been really hard for me. I don't know if its depression/anxiety/thyroid symptoms.....all of the above, or me making myself sick. don't want to do anything, really tired, sleep allot, heart races, etc. I go Tuesday to meet with the Doc's, and I will have a date shortly after that. Then the real panic will set in. Thank you so much! Debbi hugs3

All of these symptoms are thyroid related, and I suspect the stress of what you are going through is really doing a number on your emotions and energy level. I think you will feel tons better after your surgery. I know I did.

[seastan67]

Hi Debb, Yes its early in the morning when I get up and get ready for work I think that last message I sent was around 5am this morning my time. I work for Defence so its early starts for me !!!hugs6

[JoJo]

Not much time to catch up... Did you have the surgery Debbi?? :hugs:

[anxiousme]

JoJo, not yet, I go May 9th, and I am not liking this! lol I will be glad when its over. So tired of worrying about it.

[seastan67]

Thank for your kind words Deb, now its your time to go through with your surgery. All things aside Debb you will be fine, you can trust me when I say if I can do it you can, so please do not delay this any longer ok. I want you to be where I am today which is still awfull waiting for the results but at least the surgery is over, just keep saying this to yourself on the day. You want to know what it is growing inside you and the only way to find this out is to have the surgery, say it Deb, mean it and then say it again.
Chat with your Anethitist on the day and open your heart to them about your fears, I am pretty sure you will be suprised at what they have to say.
Counting down the days for you. Cant say it enough Deb, please do this It was not that bad and do you know this morning I was feeling so good I actually wondered if there was something wrong with me for feeling so darn good, only to realise that this Thyroid problem has been dragging me down for so long I didnt realise how bad it had effected me. Even when I take a deep breath now I feel as though I am breathing in more air, strange but I just feel awesome. The fear of waiting for the results still looms though... so it aint over yet... but I am one step closer Deb to the end of all of this and you need to be one step closer as well. I sound like a broken record Deb, please trust me you will be fine xxxxTan

[seastan67]

And no chocolate for you this Easter ,Chocolate is bad LMAO:party0009::tongue0015:

[anxiousme]

Omg Tanya you crack me up! I'm thinking I have 2 weeks left to live, and I'm gonna eat up all that Easter candy. :tongue0013: Happy Easter! Debbi

[seastan67]

Hi Debb, I was also thinking I had only a few days to live when I was waiting for surgery, its so silly, of course you have more than 2 weeks to live.... I was thinking that right up till they put me to sleep on the operating table.... BUT I made it to the other side and so will you,,,,

hugs2- ok you can eat chocolate then..........:tongue0013:

[seastan67]

Hi Deb, havent seen you on the boards for a few days now, hope you get this message and that your ok, I got my results back which were all Benign, I am so relieved, Now its just you that has to go through this horrible journey but I am still checking in here all the time to make sure your ok, so please let us know how things are going ok... Thinking of you Tanya:hugs:

[anxiousme]

hooray Tanya hugs7 I am so happy for you. I was off all week so we did some vacationing, no computers, and it was kind of nice not to dwell on this. Yes, I still have this long road to travel, and to top it off, I thought I was going May, 9th, but that's only a visit with the Doc:sad0049: will get the date then, and yes when he says go, I'm going. At this point I will run, and jump into that bed. I'll keep in touch, and let you know. I am so happy for ya, and I have been thinking of you, and wondering how you are. So happy for you, thank gosh!
:hugs: Debbi

[seastan67]

Hi Debb, Glad to hear your ok also, I cant move on until I know your going to be ok, and I am also going to keep coming to this site to help others, you cant get rid of me that easy :tongue0013: Please let us know what happens at your appointment etc, I am feeling so much Better Debb, its hard to explain it really but I know your going to fell like I do after you finally get passed the surgery. hugs1

[seastan67]

good luck with your appointment Debb, cant wait to hear when your surgery date will be:hugs:

[anxiousme]

Tanya, Thanks so much for sticking by me. Went to Doc today, and surgery is scheduled for May 26th. explode Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr......really freaking out now. No if, and's, or buts I gotta go. That day is etched in stone. He is making me the first surgery, and he has me meeting with the sleepy Doctor next Tuesday, and then all the pre-op testing AGAIN! I just did all this, but the tests are only good for 3 months. :sad0049: So this is it, just a couple more weeks to whine, and I'll be right behind you hopefully, on the way to a better quality of life. :hugs: Debbi

[seastan67]

Thats good news Debb, now you just have to put one foot in front of the other untill then. I am feeling wonderful apart from worried about my weight, but I will get that sorted out, probably to much chocolate over Easter. Try not to think about it all to much and just for once in your life DO as your told ,lol, I am lucky I had a really good looking Anethatist so I didnt mind having to see him to do all the pre tests etc.... hugs2

[anxiousme]

Omg Tanya you crack me up. I'll get the ugly mean one. :tongue0013: Cant believe I have to go through all this again. (TESTS) I will be soooooooooooooo happy when this is over! hugs4 Did ya hear anything yet? Hope you are well. My daughter is a surgical assistant for a Dermatologist, and a girl she works with had a TT last week. She says it was a piece of cake. Anyway I saw her scar, and yours is much prettier. LOL Debbi

[seastan67]

Hi Debb, just checking in on you, have been pretty busy with work etc, hows it all going, I bet your starting to count down the days. its ok the clock WILL be ticking after surgery also, so dont panic, I still feel fab its been 5 weeks now since surgery for me and you cant even really see the scar anymore. Im here with ya buddy take deep breaths , cant wait for you to get this done.hugs2

[anxiousme]

Hey Tanya thank you once again for sticking by me! Don't know what I would do without you. Nerves are really setting in now, if it wasn't bad before, It's reached its peak now. Back down today to redo all those test everything went fine. Met with the Doc who's putting me to sleep, and I know in my heart I could not be in better hands, those people have gone above, and beyond to help me get through this. I said to him again "do I have to put on a sticky note to remind you to give me enough air?" he laughed and said no you don't need a note there will be two of out with you the entire time. I have got to get some courage, and stop picturing this thing. I need my life back, and yessssssssssssss I am counting the days already. Thanks again Tanya cant wait to be like you. I am so glad you are doing so well. Debbi

[anxiousme]

See how nervous I am :sad0004::sad0004::aim17:I cant even type. lol I meant he said two of them will be with me the entire time. :hugs: Debbi

[seastan67]

Just let it all out now Deb ,ITS quite normal to feel all that you are feeling , nerves etc, its ok, the main thing is to say something when your feeling anxious and worried and you have done that The Docs dont think your a nut job trust me. Before I went under and was lying in the waiting area for surgery it seemed like I had to go and pee pee every 2 minutes, the nurse said to me whats wrong? have you got pre surgery pee pee problems, she was laughing and said she also suffered that, its all normal Deb and so are you , so just let them do thier job honey and make sure you go to the loo heaps before hand hugs3

[titian1]

Hi Anxiousme,
I'm currently off work recovering from a TT that I had done 4 weeks ago. I had a multinodular goitre with 3 large tumors 4cm/5cm and a 15cm one they found when they opened me up.

I can tell you that I'm fairly certain there is no-one in the world more scared of surgery than me. I'm the worst patient, I hate all of it; being put to sleep, being wheeled down to theatre, wondering if I will survive etc.....

Well, as you can see I did survive and the cut in my neck is rather fantastic. I was with other women on the ward who were having the same surgery so I watched them go down to surgery and then saw them back on the ward as we recovered.
My surgeon reassured me by telling me he does this surgery all the time and I was particularly worried as I had palpitations that were a bit scary. The ting that really reassured me was when he told me that if anything was to ever happen to a person the best place they could possibly be was on an operating table at the time! Everything is there ready to ensure your survival, whereas the rest of the time in your life, you take your chances. This cheered me up.
I've now had the good news that I don't have cancer.

It's hard for you not to worry as only you have to go through it, and how you feel at each given moment, and the only thing that really worked for me was trust. Trust that they do this all the time and that you are in the best place possible. Then try and let go...
Good luck xxx:hugs:
Oh, and ask if you can have a pre-med to calm you down.

[anxiousme]

Can I just say thank you, thank you for your great advice. I do have to trust, and your right what a better place to then right there in the hospital. I will be so happy when this ordeal is over, and behind me.......but in the mean time I am a nervous wreck, and It's people like you that will get me through! Thank you. Debbi:sad0049::sad0049:

[titian1]

Can I just say thank you, thank you for your great advice. I do have to trust, and your right what a better place to then right there in the hospital. I will be so happy when this ordeal is over, and behind me.......but in the mean time I am a nervous wreck, and It's people like you that will get me through! Thank you. Debbi:sad0049::sad0049:
Hey Debbie,
I will be thinking of you on the day and sending you good vibes.. knowing that a couple of hours later it will be over and done with and you will be on the road to recovery. hugs4

[anxiousme]

Awww.......... that means so much to me hugs1 Thank you. I,m sure I will be driving you all crazy by next Thursday. :confused0068: I am counting down the days like no other. Thank you, Debbi

[bigfoot]

Don't think too much about it (easier said than done) and hang in there! You'll do great!

:anim_32:

[seastan67]

Hi Deb, I posted on my thread but here it is below also:)
Hi Deb, Yes its getting close now that a good thing. I found that the actual time from when I went to sleep to when I woke seemed like a split second and that will be the same for you I am sure, so dont worry to much about it. Remember to start thinking about what to take to the Hospital with you , may I recommend your favourite pillow, and some of your favourite toiletries, becuase that first shower after surgery is so very nice and having a good pillow will help you to rest afterwards. Take a few snacks also , things you usually like to eat, soft fruits that sort of thing, and a water bottle was also helpfull. I also took my moblie phone, and a book , although I didnt feel much like reading it, but having the phone was good to be able to chat to everyone after the operation, my voice was a little weak afterwards and still is a little but no change to the sound of my voice, its just when I try and yell at my son that it hurts a little , so I just dont yell anymore LOL:evilgrin0010:
I also ate chocolate afterwards it was nice and soothing. I only took minimal pain killers in the first 6 hours after surgery and then nothing , so do not be worried about pain , its more just that you know you have had surgery so you tend to hold your neck stiff and that can become painfull, remember to try and move your neck from side to side afterwards and up and down this will stop it from getting sore. And the pillow will help with this also. I go back to my Endo on the 26th for some blood tests and he wants to go over the pathology report with me. He said the doctor who rang and told me everything was ok , should not have and he wants to talk to me when I go in, so here we go again , I am worried now ..... Anyhow as we both know its all a very LONG SLOW road to get through all of this but with friends like you and one foot in front of the other we both shall get there in the end, whenever that might be........... Chin up your doing finehugs6:jumping0047:

Also take socks, and moisturiser, I know that sounds dumb but its no good having cold feet and the moisturiser is wonderful on your skin in the shower, Look at this experience in this way Deb its about pampering yourself, taking time out to have the surgery get fixed and look after yourself and feel great, and if you stick to this and pamper yourself a little you will feel FAB.:hugs:

Dont you worry I will be checking on here every day to see how it went.... I know exactly where your heads at with this, and you will be finehugs3

[anxiousme]

Dear Tanya, thank you for all the great advice. I hold in everything you say to me, and I will tell you again, THANK GOD I HAVE YOU! hugs3 Now, the day you go back to the Doc is the day of surgery for me. Some how we do end up together, in all this mess.
This is going to kill me, knowing what they said to you. Try not to get too upset though, (I know I can say this to you, but doing it is another thing!) I just think that if it was really bad, they would of got in touch with you there much sooner. That was mean of him to leave you on that note. I pray all will go well on that day, for me, and you. I know in my heart that you are cancer free, and well on your way my friend. I will be here for you no matter what, as long as I make it through Thursday of course, lol:tongue0015: :hugs: Debbi

Bigfoot, thank you so much, for the advice I'm trying not to think real hard, but its tough. I am thankful for all the support from everyone, thank you. :hugs: Debbi

[seastan67]

Hey Deb, try to have a nice weekend and relax a little, Thursday will be over before you know it. I will be here every day to check untill then so if your struggling feel free to vent......
You have to do it this time , no pulling out.............
Thinking of you
Tanhugs4

[anxiousme]

OMG.......Tanya, the what if's are taking over! I gotta get through this, and I'm flipping out! :sad0049: I wish they would just knock me out as soon as I walked in the door. If they leave me sit to long, I will walk right out of there. My husband, and kids, are like your not going anywhere, we will sit on you if we have too! You are so lucky you're done. I hope I can do this, and come Friday I will be right there with you. hugs3 Sorry that I am such a broken record, but this is a really big issue for me. I think I have taken 10 yrs. off my life just worrying. :hugs: Debbi

[seastan67]

Well thas a good thing that your husband and kids are going to help get you to stay there. If I was there I would just use rope LOL. You have to do it Deb so just get used to the idea , and stop thinking about the (what ifs?). I am sure you know the world was supposed to end today ,(rapture end of days 21 may 2011, but we are all still here and you will still be here in Friday, so stop thinking like that already..................................::hugs: If you dont have your surgery you gonna make me really cranky, and I dont think you will like me when I m cranky:anim_55:

[webster2]

Best wishes to you! I have a thyroid problem after having half removed 20 years ago. I am so nervous waiting to have the uptake scan, and for results...I will keep you in my thoughts.

[anxiousme]

Dear Webster, thank you so much for thinking of me. I'm sorry you have to go through that. I would be really nervous for that also. I know in my heart that you will do great, I will be thinking of you also. When do you go? and please let me know how you do. Good luck. :hugs: Debbi

Tanya, you're the best! hugs1

[seastan67]

Thats Ok Deb, hang in there it will be worth it, checking in daily- hugs3

[titian1]

Good luck for tomorrow (Is it tomorrow for you? I'm in the UK so confused by time difference).
All will be well!

[Andros]

Thank you so much for sticking by me, it means alot. Hopefully I will here something this week. Now I'm getting to the point that I just want it done. I am so glad you are doing so well. I'm jealous I cant wait until I am were you are. hugs4

Just want you to know that you are in my thoughts and prayers while you are in surgery and after.

Will be most anxious to hear from you!

[anxiousme]

Awwwww thank you.......It's Monday afternoon here. I am in the US, I am counting down the days now. I go Thursday morning May 26th, not sure of the time yet, have to wait until surgery dept. calls Wed. night. I really only have Tues, and Wed. left so my heart is pounding, and all I do is cry :sad0049: when no ones home. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, say a prayer for me. I am so scared, and all I want to do is live, get this thing out explode and get through this. I just hope I can do this, and not flip out again! Thank u for all the support! :hugs: Debbi

[Andros]

Awwwww thank you.......It's Monday afternoon here. I am in the US, I am counting down the days now. I go Thursday morning May 26th, not sure of the time yet, have to wait until surgery dept. calls Wed. night. I really only have Tues, and Wed. left so my heart is pounding, and all I do is cry :sad0049: when no ones home. PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, say a prayer for me. I am so scared, and all I want to do is live, get this thing out explode and get through this. I just hope I can do this, and not flip out again! Thank u for all the support! :hugs: Debbi

I am saying prayers for you Debbi! You are going to be A-okay and just think of all the rest you are going to get. That's the good part.

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[seastan67]

Its OK Debb, your not alone.............. We have all felt and are feeling for you right now, please try and relax and stop dwelling in this so much, if need be see your doctor and ask for some medication to help with the anxiety. Only 2 more days of anxiety to go my friend and it will all be done and you will feel a whole lot better for it. So please just try to relax. Nothing is going to happen other than you having the surgery YOU NEED to start feeling better again. Take care talk to you after wards, please post again when your up to it after surgery. LOVE Tan x:hugs:

[anxiousme]

Surgery tomm. and I am so scared:scared0011: I don't no if I can do this. My heart is pounding. I am ready to bale out of this, and just live with this bump.

[webster2]

Hang in there! Keep telling yourself "I want to feel better". I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

[titian1]

Surgery tomm. and I am so scared:scared0011: I don't no if I can do this. My heart is pounding. I am ready to bale out of this, and just live with this bump.
I felt exactly the same 5 weeks ago. I had to wait from 7am until 2pm in the hospital to have my surgery and that almost had me walking out with nerves.
Do ask the hosiptal staff for something to take the edge off the anxiety for you.
The medical staff will be wonderful with you and will have dealt with so many people who are so scared... and then seem them wake up totally fine.
Remember.. you are in the best place.. on an operating table with everything that could possibly be needed right there. It will be over with soon enough and you will be back at home posting on this forum just like me (watching reruns of Real Housewives of Orange County!) :hugs:

I also had begun to think I could live with 2, 5cm lumps that inhibited my breathing. Thank God I went through with it though or they wouldn't have found the other 15cm tumor.

[bigfoot]

You're gonna do great! hugs6

[anxiousme]

Thank you so much, my mind is racing! They just called I have to be there at 6:00 am. I feel so sick, my mind is racing with some crazy, crazy thoughts, what if I don't wake up, or what if they don't give me enough, and I feel it. I am really scared. Thank you so much for all your support, and I hope I get through this, and I can help someone else through it. :hugs: Debbi Thank you all so much for putting up with me all these months!!!!!!!! Hopefully I don't back out this time.

[seastan67]

YOU WONT BE BACKING OUT THIS TIME DEB....WILL YOU......... :hugs:

[anxiousme]

Tanya I think I am. I going to have a heart attack. I can't do this. Took xanax not working. Spoke with the shrink on the phone. She says I don't think your ready yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm like ya think! My Doctor is going to kill me. I'm going to leave that thing in there. I will die before I even get there. I have not eaten in 2 days, I am so focused on this. That can't be healthy. It can stay. Love, Debbi

[seastan67]

Deb, Its your body, no body can force you to have the surgery, personally I think your doing yourself more harm than good and its dangerous to leave the nodule in there considering it was suspicious for cancer, you are making things a whole lot worse for yourself long term , but again I do understand how difficult it is to go through with surgery. I really wish you would see that its more important to have the surgery and know what you are dealing with , rather than leave it in there, but alas no one can force you. One day I hope you start to see that its important for you and your family to have treatment for this condition, until I am here for you as always Tan xxhugs4
I am off to my appointment with the ENDO now and will post afterwards,

[titian1]

here's hoping that you made it there and that you are now in recovery.

[bigfoot]

Yes, we're all pulling for you! hugs3

[seastan67]

Is also hoping you went through with surgery and is awaiting a responsehugs2

[seastan67]

Oh Deb, the suspense is killing me lol............. Hope your ok.......... Get back to us soon, prayers and thoughts with you.......hugs4hugs7

[anxiousme]

No I'm still here This is pretty hard for me, so I'm not going to get into it now, just wanted to thank all you good people for all your support, and trying to help me get through this hugs2 The closest I have been to getting in there was because of people like you. I can't thank you enough for all your prayers, and thoughts. I will be in touch and let you know what is going to happen, but thank you for thinking of me. (Tanya my friend of love you so much for really sticking by my side, I WILL NOT lose touch with you. Now enough of my drama, and on to you, Are you ok? what did the Doctor say? ) Thank you guys from the bottom of my heart again every post you all posted made me smile, and feel much stronger. :hugs: Debbi

[anxiousme]

Sorry can't type nerves are really just shot! I meant Tanya my friend I... not of. lol

[seastan67]

Hi Deb, thats ok, dont feel bad, its a big hurdle I know. Hoping you relax and try again, I sent you a private message . Keep your chin up Tan x:hugs:

[anxiousme]

Tanya, you are one of the kindest people I know. Wish you weren't on the other side of the world, if you ever travel to the states you will always have a place to stay. (I would take good care of ya) hugs3 Love Debbi
How did you do at the Doctors? Did they say everything is good?

[JoJo]

Hello Deb.
Haven't been on in a while and came to see how you're doing. I see it's continued to be tough for you and you didn't go through with the surgery :( I truly hope that you're doing ok. :hugs:

Jo

[anxiousme]

Aww JoJo, thank you, yes this is really hard, and really making me sick anymore, but until I can get passed that fear, it's gonna be a long road for me, as for you though I am so glad your getting a second opinion, and I hope all goes well for you. Look forward to hearing from you. :hugs: Debbi

[JoJo]

Hello Debbi. It's a go on my surgery... sighhh. I will most likely schedule it on Wednesday when I meet with my new surgeon. I posted more about it on my original "newbie w/a nodule" post. I hope that you are doing well. Maybe we can schedule "it" for the same day ;) However, I may wait until after summer is over... about 2-3 months from now. Again, hoping all's well. :hugs: ~ Jo

[anxiousme]

Jo, you make me crack up, thank you. I'm sorry you have to get the surgery too, stinks huh! If they could do that surgery awake I would jump in that hospital bed tomm. I am a pretty tough cookie that way. It's that going to sleep that petrifies me. Let me know when you meet with the surgeon for your date, and trust me I'm in no rush, mine will end up being the end of summer too.
lol:scared0011: hugs Debbi

[Evernight74]

I understand exactly how you feel. For 6 years mine hasnt grown and they dont believe its cancer but the only way to know for sure is to have it removed. I am seeing a surgeon on june 23rd and I am scared to death. i take tons of anxiety meds and have been for years. The major problem is we do this to ourselves. The fear we feel is not rational thought for most people. I walk around and rub my neck all the time I was sure I could feel it grow by the second. its crazy to have so much fear, but my advice and what I do is think a certain thought or phrase over and over when I start to freak out. MY Quote I use is "dont worry about a thing because every little things gonna be alright" its a bob marley song. I am scared to death about my surgery but I know in my heart that If I dont get it removed that i will always fear that its going to grow and choke me to death or be cancer and spread. I have a 15 year old and 11 year old both boys and they are my world. I have spoke with them about my fears and about all the what ifs that could happen during my surgery... It has made me feel much better. I am ready for them to remove it.. will i be scared? of course! will I wake up after surgery? chances are pretty good. But in life you never know. So I have spoken with my boys and told them that no matter what happens that I love them and I will always be with them no matter what. I am a fighter so I will be okay but if for some crazy reason I am not I have let the people I love know tht I love them and for anyone I have ever hurt I told them i was sorry. Its stupid that it took the fear of surgery and death for me to realise that just letting people you know you love them and will be there for them has given me the most comfort. Hell there are no guarentees to how long we will be here on this earth but I can guarentee you that as a parent we do what we must to be there for our children. I will have the surgery and I will come out of it fine because my boys need me and I am not leaving them. Good luck and I hope you can find peace in your mind that will help you get through what needs to be done.. you owe to your family to be the best you can be! Maybe if you look at it like this: If your 14 year old was having the same thing as you going on would you want him to have the surgery to remove the possiability of cancer or would you tell him to leave it in. ( I know the answer because I am a mom) Do for yourself the same as you would if it was your son. it makes the choice easier well it did for me!

[anxiousme]

Dear evernight,
Thank you for the encouragement, and understanding, anxiety is a cruel thing and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Yes! trust me I have questioned myself with every question possible, one of which was.......if this was one of my children I would of had them there, and better by now so why dont I go. I LIVE FOR THEM. My children are very lucky they are strong, not anxious (thank god) brave, and they have great parents......lol I on the other hand I have endured things people should not have to endure in there life which plays a huge part in my fear. (if those things can happen to me, then I am going to be the one that does not wake from surgery) anyway I'm working on that, and I am not going to go there on here. I have been honest with them they now I have a suspicious nodule, that has to go, I am not in danger, but it has to go, and I will get through this. That's all I feel they need to know right now. It def. has to go its making me crazy. I dwell on it all the time. Thank you for supporting me, and I also will be there for you. I am sorry you have to deal with this also. I know you and I will be just fine. :hugs: Debbi

Dear Andros, if you get this mess. before tomm. I have an appointment with my gp and I would like her to run some thyroid test. What should I have done. Thank you! Debbi

[seastan67]

Hi Deb
I sent you an email yesterday sorry have bee busy with family stuff and getting ready to move etc.
I am not liking what I am reading here, seems to me things are getting worse not better, suffice to say that your anxiety is steming from your thyroid condition (a symptom) , catch 22 situation, your anxiety is stopping you from having surgery, nothing is going to improve until you have had the surgery, alas your anxiety is ruling the outcome here.

Take care sweety, I can only say once again that you will feel quite silly about all of this once you know how much better you will feel after surgery....you just have t get to that point ok..... hugs4
With regards to yourBlood tests get your doctor to TEST everything!!!hugs2

love Tanya x

[Evernight74]

My anxiety also controls me in everything I do so I completely understand. I broke down an cried yesterday just from the stress of it all... doctors-test-another doctor and the fact that its all I think about. I know you gotta be strong but sometimes it gets to be alot. The only thing that I am hoping for is that my anxiety is causing me to over react and once its out it will be cancer free and I dont have to worry about my neck growing. Even though it hasnt grown in 6 years I sometimes could swear it is bigger this morning LOL. What a pain in the butt this whole thing can be. I hope you can get your fears under control I know how hard it is. What ever you decide you'll be okay.. we all do what we can to survive.

[anxiousme]

Dear Evernight, you are so sweet, thank you so much for all your kind words. Us anxious people have to stick together huh! Try not to be sad, you will be ok. I know what you mean about the over thinking, we imagine, and we think we can make anything happen lol. (well..... we can't it's just the crazy thinking) :hugs:
Went to GP today and had her run every test under the sun. I'm lucky she will do anything to make you feel better. (plus she knows I'm a nervous nelly) lol, I go to the new surgeon on June 28th so we will see what happens. :sad0049: It's plan B long story short, my husband has a long time customer that is a Doctor, and he is actually going into surgery with me to hold my hand. (big baby that I am) He knows I am having a big problem with this, and made the offer. I jumped on that! I am so lucky and thankful. Also the hospital I was going to was a cancer hospital 45 min. away. I felt very alone every time I had to go there, depressed, and sad. My Gp said I did not have to go there he was just a great surgeon. Anyway now I will be 10 min from home in a hospital that I have had surgery and 3 of my 4 children in, So if this doesn't work nothing will.
Tanya my good buddy, try not to over do things, and I will E-mail you. I am so glad you are better, and have the energy to make the big move. Good Luck, and thanks for checking in on me.
:hugs: Debbi

[Evernight74]

I am so happy that you have a support group around you to get you through the surgery!! I know it will be scary but we do what we must. My first appointment with the surgeon is June 23rd. Its very scary for me but I know that getting it out is the only way I will ever feel free from this. My prayers and positive energy I will be sending your way! Thank you for sharing your story it has helped me with my choice to go ahead and have it removed... Much love and hugs...Gina

[Andros]

Dear evernight,
Thank you for the encouragement, and understanding, anxiety is a cruel thing and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Yes! trust me I have questioned myself with every question possible, one of which was.......if this was one of my children I would of had them there, and better by now so why dont I go. I LIVE FOR THEM. My children are very lucky they are strong, not anxious (thank god) brave, and they have great parents......lol I on the other hand I have endured things people should not have to endure in there life which plays a huge part in my fear. (if those things can happen to me, then I am going to be the one that does not wake from surgery) anyway I'm working on that, and I am not going to go there on here. I have been honest with them they now I have a suspicious nodule, that has to go, I am not in danger, but it has to go, and I will get through this. That's all I feel they need to know right now. It def. has to go its making me crazy. I dwell on it all the time. Thank you for supporting me, and I also will be there for you. I am sorry you have to deal with this also. I know you and I will be just fine. :hugs: Debbi

Dear Andros, if you get this mess. before tomm. I have an appointment with my gp and I would like her to run some thyroid test. What should I have done. Thank you! Debbi

I just saw this, Debbi!! How are you holding up?

Here is what I recommend and also RAIU (radioactive uptake) if you have not had one.

TSI
Normally, there is no TSI in the blood. If TSI is found in the blood, this indicates that the thyroid stimulating immunoglobulin is the cause of the of a person's hyperthyroidism.

http://www.medicineonline.com/topics/t/2/Thyroid-Stimulating-Immunoglobulin/TSI.html

TSI (thyroid stimulating immunoglobulin),TPO (antimicrosomal antibodies) TBII (thyrotropin-binding inhibitory immunoglobulin), Thyroglobulin Ab, ANA (antinuclear antibodies), (thyroid hormone panel) TSH, Free T3, Free T4.

You can look this stuff up here and more.........
http://www.labtestsonline.org/

Hope you get this in time.

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[anxiousme]

Dear Andros, thank you, I went before I saw your mess. but was able to copy the test down from other forums. She is a great Doc, she didn't even know of most of the test I requested, but she pushed every thyroid test she could, so we will see what happens. I never had a RAIU, nor did anyone ever offer. Should I look into that, or just try to proceed with getting this thing out. I feel very, very hyper, but is it thyroid, or NERVES, not sure but I guess these test will show. I will post them the minute I get them. Thank you again. :hugs: Debbi

Evernight: I will share my stories with you anytime. Anytime you need someone to lean on I will be here, and thank you for sharing yours, it's nice to know you are not alone. hugs3 Debbi

[Andros]

Dear Andros, thank you, I went before I saw your mess. but was able to copy the test down from other forums. She is a great Doc, she didn't even know of most of the test I requested, but she pushed every thyroid test she could, so we will see what happens. I never had a RAIU, nor did anyone ever offer. Should I look into that, or just try to proceed with getting this thing out. I feel very, very hyper, but is it thyroid, or NERVES, not sure but I guess these test will show. I will post them the minute I get them. Thank you again. :hugs: Debbi

Evernight: I will share my stories with you anytime. Anytime you need someone to lean on I will be here, and thank you for sharing yours, it's nice to know you are not alone. hugs3 Debbi

I am very relieved to hear how amenable this doctor is. That is the very best news of all.

When you get your lab results, please do remember we need the ranges as well.

Let's wait and see what tests your doctor has run and what they have to indicate. Then we can revisit the RAIU issue if your doctor does not beat us to the punch. She sounds like she wants to be on top of this. And I am glad!

Keeping fingers crossed here.

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[anxiousme]

Dear Andros, here is what I got back. I do not really understand the numbers, but I do know how I feel (not good) could just be the situation, and knowing I have to do this. Thank you for taking a look and giving your input. Doc says everything looks normal.
Result: Range:
T3 uptake 31 22-35
T,4 1.1 0.8-1.8
THYROGLOBULIN ANTIBODIES
<20 <20

THYROID PEROZIDASE ANTIBODIES
<10 <35

TSH 3RD GENERATION
1.10 0.40-4.50

Are there any other test, I should have done. Thank you:hugs:Debbi

[anxiousme]

Dear Andros, I was just looking into some of the test, and I think I am missing some of them. Still confused, please let me know and I will tell her. Thank you so much.:hugs:Debbi

[Andros]

Dear Andros, here is what I got back. I do not really understand the numbers, but I do know how I feel (not good) could just be the situation, and knowing I have to do this. Thank you for taking a look and giving your input. Doc says everything looks normal.
Result: Range:
T3 uptake 31 22-35
T,4 1.1 0.8-1.8
THYROGLOBULIN ANTIBODIES
<20 <20

THYROID PEROZIDASE ANTIBODIES
<10 <35

TSH 3RD GENERATION
1.10 0.40-4.50

Are there any other test, I should have done. Thank you:hugs:Debbi


Boy, this doc is doing the bare minimum here. T3 uptake is protein and does not tell us a whole lot except that it is high in the range and that suggests hyperthyroid http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/003688.htm and the Total 4 is bound and unbound hormone so it's anybody's guess what your Free T4 (unbound available for cellular uptake) is.

Now, you do have a smattering of TPO and while it is not in the range, it is suggestive of autoimmune.

These are the tests and you must insist on the FREE T3 and FREE T4

TSI (thyroid stimulating immunoglobulin),TPO (antimicrosomal antibodies) TBII (thyrotropin-binding inhibitory immunoglobulin), Thyroglobulin Ab, ANA (antinuclear antibodies), (thyroid hormone panel) TSH, Free T3, Free T4.

You can look this stuff up here and more.........
http://www.labtestsonline.org/

Please use the links and look everything up so you can talk knowledgeably.

TSI
Normally, there is no TSI in the blood. If TSI is found in the blood, this indicates that the thyroid stimulating immunoglobulin is the cause of the of a person's hyperthyroidism.

http://www.medicineonline.com/topics/t/2/Thyroid-Stimulating-Immunoglobulin/TSI.html

And here is where you can learn why you need the FREE T3 and FREE T4 (NOT the Total 3 and Total 4)

understanding thyroid labs
http://www.amarillomed.com/howto/#Thyroid
http://pro2services.com/Lectures/Spring/Thyroid/ThyTests.htm

And while your Total 4 is in range, it is below the mid-range (1.3) of the range given which suggests that because this is bound and unbound hormone and we do not know the ratio that once again, something is going on.


Sending many caring hugs! I sincerely wish for you to be well! Your family "needs" you!

[anxiousme]

Dear Andros, thank you I thought there was more. I will read up on all the websites you provided, and I will insist on the correct test. The sad part about this is my GP is willing, just not real knowledgeable :sad0049: when it comes to thyroid, as I learned quickly not many are. I thank you so much for all your help these last months, and months to come. :hugs: Debbi

[Andros]

Dear Andros, thank you I thought there was more. I will read up on all the websites you provided, and I will insist on the correct test. The sad part about this is my GP is willing, just not real knowledgeable :sad0049: when it comes to thyroid, as I learned quickly not many are. I thank you so much for all your help these last months, and months to come. :hugs: Debbi

Debbie; if this woman is willing, the end result will be that "both" of you will be knowledgeable. You see? This could be a blessing for both of you!

You are welcome and I hope you know that I and others here will help to the best of our ability.

And thank you for being who and what you are. Despite being so ill, you come across as a most lovely person.

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[JoJo]

Debbi - How are you doing?? I've scheduled my surgery for this month instead of waiting; just two weeks away!! I'm sure my anxiety level will gradually increase the closer it gets. I hope you are doing well!!

[anxiousme]

JoJo, thank you so much for checking in with me. hugs7 I am scheduled for 8-12-11. (SOOOOOOOOO FARRRRRRRRR) When is your surgery scheduled, and how are you feeling? :hugs: Debbi

[seastan67]

Hi Debb and Jo Jo- Sorry have not been in touch have been busy wih moving house- just thought I would check in and see how you both are doing- I wont be able to check again for a couple of weeks becuase I will be on the road through the outback of australia and there is no internet connection- so Jo jo sounds like your all go for surgery best of Luck to you. And Deb lets hope you can keep your date this time around hugs6 I am doing well, cant believe I let it go so long, no regrets about the surgery and am firing on all cylinders. Will check back soon
Love Tanyahugs4

[JoJo]

Hi Girls :) My surgery is scheduled for July 19th. Just a week away! I feel a bit of relief knowing that it will soon be over and done with, but of course still a bit of anxiousness going into it.

Great job getting yours scheduled Debbi! You can do it! My motto for years was "just do it"... ya know, Nike's slogan :D

Have a great trip Tanya!! I'm so jealous!! ;) It's great to hear that you're feeling well and SOOO nice to read about positive results from the surgery.

:hugs:

I'll keep you updated. Take Care!

[anxiousme]

JoJo, let us know as soon as you can I will be thinking about ya. I know you will do great! Tanya we miss you, and I am so glad you are doing so well. I am going to try to keep this date, 3 wks, and counting. :hugs: Debbi

[miguel]

JoJo, let us know as soon as you can I will be thinking about ya. I know you will do great! Tanya we miss you, and I am so glad you are doing so well. I am going to try to keep this date, 3 wks, and counting. :hugs: Debbi

Hi debbie, I understand you, I was operated on for thyroid the day June 15, 2011, was a complete success even though my thyroid lobe was 1lb of weight. My surgery was scheduled in just 1 week. Pathology found no cancer in any lobe. The pathologist was shocked, she said she never saw a giant thyroid. The surgery had no complications, no damage to my vocal cords, and there was no damage to my parathyroid. I'm really grateful to my surgeon and all the people who were with me. Now I'm ready to live a full life, I feel I was given a second chance at life.

I will not lie to you, when I enter the operating room was very nervous, my surgeon told me that if I'm not ready I could go home, but I knew that if I spend more time left to get better. My surgeon is one of the best in my city. For this surgery you should always seek out a surgeon with experience and good reputation.

Good luck on your surgery, do not be afraid, you should have more fear about having it in the neck and not surgery.

I wish you will have a new full life.

Miguel

[JoJo]

Debbi! :D I just got home and don't feel all too bad. I'm taking only ibuprofen as narcotics did not agree with me. The surgery didn't start until 6:30 - 7 last night so I sat in the hospital waiting four hours. But I survived!! As far as I know they took two lymph nodes along with entire thyroid and I'll find out pathology results on Monday.. as well as exactly what they did. Til then I'll be taking it pretty easy. I'm going to write on my post with a little more detail... you keep you chin up and do your best to stay positive girl!! You can do this!!
:hugs:

[webster2]

So glad you are home, and it is over with! Positive thoughts for the pathology results!

[seastan67]

HI Jo Jo, that is awesome news! so glad your all done, now we only have to get our Deb sorted out hey lol..... You take it easy and get lots of sleep, will check back later in the week and see what your results are. I getmy computer back next week so will be able to spend more time on here, the move went well and I am also back at work.... Deb, hope your ok, Jo Jo and I will be on your case now lol...:tongue0015:love Tan xx

[anxiousme]

JoJo, I don't know how you did it. :scared0015: I would of ran out of there, if they made me wait. I am so proud, and happy for you great job. hugs8 I am so glad that part of this is over for you, and you are recovering you. How do you feel today? I will still be thinking of you. Debbi
Tanya, we missed you, cant wait to catch up.
Miguel, thank you so much for your message, that's the real sad part here, is I,m not petrified of the situation, I am a wreck over the surgery part. I should be ok this time around, a close Doctor friend, is going in with me, so I feel pretty lucky, and I not freaking out as much, as the other 2 times. We will see though when it gets closer, still have 2 wks. or so. to go. I really appreciate everything you said, and I will keep everyone's advice with me on that day.
Debbi:hugs:

[JoJo]

LOL Tan... you can tell I get picked on a lot eh? ;)

Webster... thank you!! Yes, positive thoughts going on here!!

Debbi... I'm feeling pretty well considering :) Plan to go out of the house tomorrow for a little while for a change of scenery. Maybe go for a ride my my hubby. Been resting and relaxing; sucking it up while I can! You can do this girl!! I found out that due to my post on facebook, a high school friends aunt decided to have her surgery. Her cancer is now in her jaw because she waited to long :( I was told I was an inspiration. My post before I headed to the hospital was.... "It's gonna be a good day.. Get that #$%! outa me!!!"

Maybe it will inspire you as well hun. hugs3

[seastan67]

hugs2Hi Deb, how are you doing whats the latest>? Keen to hear from you love Tan

[anxiousme]

Tan, are you up and running. How are you? How do you feel? and how was the move? I'm glad your back, missed ya .hugs7 I'm hanging in there 2 weeks to go, today ( Friday Aug, 12) Same stuff here, just another day. Glad when its finally over. :sad0049: (broken record, lol) Debbi

[seastan67]

Hi, Yes it all went very well Had an awesome time driving into Gove, its around 700km of dirt track and several rivers to cross butso worth it, its a very beautiful place. My husband started work in his new job and I got a job with the same company, so havent had time to stop really, you know what its like when you start a new job... Can be a bit overwhelming, I have been feeling ok though , just have to watch my stress levels and make sure I get lots of sleep etc. I was so happy to hear that Jo Jo has had her surgery all though I have not seen a post from her and I know se has been waiting on results which is the hardest part. So anyhow your next Deb and thats going to b fine this time around I just know you will do it with ease this time... Anyhow keep me posted as they say lol, now I have my computer back up its great to catch up..... Be GOOD OK:hugs:hugs6 XXXXXXXXXXXXX TAN

[anxiousme]

Tan, now I am getting nervous about the glands, and the vocal cords, and stuff. How do they know if they hit them or not, I've gotta stop reading stuff on the net, its freaking me out. When I get a minute I will e-mail you, and we will catch up sooooooooooooooooooo glad you're back. hugs3 Debbi

[webster2]

Tan, now I am getting nervous about the glands, and the vocal cords, and stuff. How do they know if they hit them or not, I've gotta stop reading stuff on the net, its freaking me out. When I get a minute I will e-mail you, and we will catch up sooooooooooooooooooo glad you're back. hugs3 Debbi


You know, I was nervous about this too. Twenty years ago when I had the other half out, there was no provisions for preventing damage to nerves etc. It was the surgeon's skill that covered that. Now, they have these little electrode things that are attached to nerves, vocal chords, and all that other good stuff in there to let them know where they are, and if they get too close. I was delighted to learn about this improvement. They take extra care to avoid damaging the parathyroids which was nice because I didn't have any on the right side.

I was amazed at the surgical team I had, they were a true well oiled machine. I was the 2nd thyroid of three on that day.

Try not to focus on the bad stuff, just think of the positive things that will be coming your way. I found listening to the people here really helped calm my nerves. Take care,:hugs::hugs:

[anxiousme]

Little Webster, you are truly the sweetest person hugs3 thank you. I am my own worst enemy. I think I'm looking for any reason to get out of this, when in my heart I know I have to do it. I just keep thinking I am lucky not to have any of the problems that can occur, if they mess up, and what if I'm doing this to get better, and I get worse. You are so lucky you had a great team. I was originally going to go with the chief head and neck surgeon, who would never have hit those glands, and now I am going with a general surgeon who does a couple a month. He says he is very comfortable with the surgery, but I am so reluctant. I had to switch do to the circumstances. I really hope I made the right decision. (not sure if you know I have a Doctor friend who is going right into surgery with me, so I switched to a hospital close to home where he is on staff. rather then make him cut threw all the red tape to get the clearance at another hospital.) He did say he would but I feel lucky he going, and didn't want to be more of a pain in the beep. So thank you, that info makes me feel so much better. How are you feeling? I am so happy for you. hugs7 Debbi

[webster2]

Thank you for the lovely compliment! That sure is a nice way to start the day! How nice, and reassuring that your doctor friend is able to go in with you. That is a great big piece of mind, right there. I can understand about being your own worst enemy, I think all of us have, or had, those thoughts. I know I sure did, even right up while I was sitting in the pre-op bed, and after. I think it is very normal.

I feel much better already, and it is 5 days now. Some of my symptoms were gone when I woke up. I feel so much better. The lesions I had on my skin are almost all gone. I had those nasty little devils for years. That in itself was worth it! We get the pathology report on Friday.

Do you have anyone to stay with you after? You might not really need anything but it is nice knowing someone is there.

Try not to think about it too much. Prepare yourself for after. Get your ice supply ready, comfy places to rest, and easy to eat foods. Use this time as a time to pamper yourself!

:)Thinking good thoughts for you!

[seastan67]

LOL DEB, I had alittle damage to my voice- I cant Yell anymore,,, My husband and Son think its Just great lol.... But I have noticed my voice is stronger now a couple of months on. I sound normal when I talk, its just when I try to Yell nothing comes out, have been told this will improve with time ... I know you can do this Deb. So please Please say your going to stick with it this time hugs7I am very worried that Jo Jo has not posted her results as yet<>??

[JoJo]

I'm so sorry to keep you waiting :(

I received my phone call as promised, on the day promised; 6 days after my surgery. Papillary cancer was found on both sides of thyroid. So glad I got that 2nd opinion to have entire thyroid removed and not just half. 16 lymph nodes were removed as well and all were NEGATIVE! YAY! It was a happy, yet emotional phone call to have received. My follow up appt. and blood work isn't until the end of August. They do 6 weeks after surgery for all that stuff. I was put on synthroid a month before surgery to keep the nodule from growing so I am still on that. I won't know if I need RAI until my surgeon and endo meet with the "tumor board". Hmmmm, I think that's all.

Today is 2 weeks since my surgery and for the most part I feel great. Normal bouts of exhaustion, but that was there before my surgery and quite normal to be tired after. Keeping chin up and remaining positive that I'll feel 100% in the near future. Just need time for my bod to heal. My incision is healing quickly!! It's barely noticeable already!! hugs4

[seastan67]

jo jo, I am so sorry to hear this outcome, although as you say its a good thing its been discovered and equally good that you did not put off surgery.... It sounds like they have a great plan to tackle your cancer and from my own research I know its very curable. good luck to you and keep in touch.... Deb,,, This is a wake up call for you also, please dont put your surgery off sweety.....hugs2

[Octavia]

JoJo, congratulations - it sounds like they got it all and it likely hasn't spread beyond your thyroid! I had the same diagnosis back in February/March, but I had two surgeries - a partial, then completion thyroidectomy - followed by RAI, then full body scan (clear), which is the standard protocol at the hospital I went to. My follow-up is another scan six months after the first, then another a year after that, and a year after that, and so on. When they see three clear scans, they're happy. And I keep going to the oncologist every year for life.

Look at the bright side... the worst part is over! No chemo, no radiation (at leat the kind other cancers get treated with), you won't lose your hair (okay, maybe you'll lose some, but it won't be noticeable). And because you had your entire thyroid removed, your course of treatment is pretty "cut-and-dried," unlike with some people who have Grave's or Hashi's, many of whose doctors seem to take more of a "wait and see" approach while the patients don't get any better.

Keep us posted on what the "tumor board" decides about RAI and follow-up! (The worst part about the RAI for me was the diet prior. The treatment itself was interesting, but it was certainly not painful, and did not make me sick.)

[anxiousme]

Tan, you do make me crack up! Thanks for that. Yep, I think my husband would like that also. Ya doin ok? Are you all moved in? How is your son liking the move? (lots of questions for you, lol.)
Jo, I am so sorry to hear that news, I hope you are doing well. Whats the next step? I am so glad that you got it done, and got it out. Yes, Tan this is a wake up call. I'm going. Whether I stay or not is a different story. lol just kidding, I think I will be fine.
Webster, How are you feeling? I'm getting nervous count down is on now, but I feel pretty good this time around. Keeping fingers crossed.
Thanks guys for sticking with me hopefully this time next wk. it"s over. Hugs to all! :hugs: Debbi

[webster2]

JoJo, I am so glad they got all of it too! Found out yesterday, mine was papillary too, and all out with surgery. I hope that you are feeling better each day. Debbi, praying for you..it is less than a week now.

[webster2]

JoJo, do you find that your tired feeling is more normal than before? I am not overwhelmingly exhausted anymore. I actually wake up feeling rested. It is really very nice. Wishing you all the best!

[anxiousme]

Omg, webster I am so sorry to hear that. Now, more than ever between you, and Jo, I know the importance of getting this done. I just wish it was over. Sooooooooooooooooooo sick of worrying about it. What happens now for you? or is it just all over now that it is out. Even know I am so consumed in my own issues here. I will be with you guys in spirit, and I think about you guys a lot. Lots of prayers coming your way, for you and Jo. :hugs: Debbi

[webster2]

Omg, webster I am so sorry to hear that. Now, more than ever between you, and Jo, I know the importance of getting this done. I just wish it was over. Sooooooooooooooooooo sick of worrying about it. What happens now for you? or is it just all over now that it is out. Even know I am so consumed in my own issues here. I will be with you guys in spirit, and I think about you guys a lot. Lots of prayers coming your way, for you and Jo. :hugs: Debbi

Thanks Debbi, I am very grateful it is over. I feel so much better. No more jittery feeling, no palpitations, no exhaustion, not so much foggy brain, and hopefully no more mood swings! Keeping our fingers crossed on that last one.

You know, I just knew it was cancer, after the US. The tech was a B@&$tch. As she was doing the procedure, her whole demeanor changed, and I just knew. I believe she suffers from you don't look sick, and are just wasting my time, that's her issue, not mine.

As far as the post surgery stuff, the first few days I got tired a lot, so I napped, a lot. I had no real pain after I got out of the hospital. I drank a lot of ice water using a straw. I had a little trouble getting my calcium supplement correct. I haven't really been hungry.

I can completely understand fear of surgery. I had one big fear, and I let everyone in the hospital know. I mean everyone, if they had an ID tag, they heard it. It sure made me feel better. I think the hubby was a little embarrassed but...hey, it was my body, and they were going to know. I don't feel one bit embarrassed I told everyone.

You have less than a week now. Begin to get your "after" stuff ready. Part of mine was I really wanted a certain pair of pajamas ready when I got home! Don't really think of it a surgery, just think of having a little nap for a couple of hours because that is what it will be. And, remember your friend will be there by your side, but all over the world you will have people thinking of you, wishing you well. Think about telling us your story when it is over.

:hugs:

[seastan67]

Hi DeB, Wow this week has come around really quickly, I guess you are packing your bags and heading off for surgery soon. Its all goodhugs3, you are going arent you>?>? Dont make me have to come over there and take you myself..... HA HA only kidding I know you will be fine this time around. Everything is going well here we are all settled in sort of. My son Dan loves it here, he has a new girlfriend alreay and got himself a part time job after school, so everything is looking good so far. I am feeling fab, no problems at all. never felt better ..... and you will too after surgery. Now I will be checking on here in a few day to see how it all went. A photo would be nice:tongue0015:....... Failure is not an option here DEB ----YOU WILL HAVE SURGERY THIS WEEK----:anim_03: LOVE TAN XXXXX

[anxiousme]

Awwwww Webster, I luv ya, thank you. hugs7 I'm really trying to think more positive, this time. My Son took off work, as did my daughter, and my husband will be right by my side. My little guy (not so little, will be there too!) I will be sure to tell them all my fears. (you make me crack up, cause I will be doing the same thing) I read that part and laughed. It's funny I changed the bedroom around, got new sheets, washed them, put them on, go new slippers, picked the favorite robe. (then I go I hope I get to sleep in these new sheets, my husband is like stop hon, you're going too) I am so lucky to have this man by my side, I don't know how he puts up with me. Did you feel like you where asleep forever, and when they woke you up how did you feel. I am lucky I have you, because by the time this comes on Fri. I will have bothered you with a million questions. SORRY, but thank you so much at the same time. :hugs: Debbi

[anxiousme]

Ohhhhhhh Tan, I am so proud of you. Toooooooo Cute he got a girly girl, awesome he has adjusted well. I pray I feel as good as you, when this is over. Are you on any meds? How will they know if they hit my glands or not? That is the kind of stuff that is eating at me now. But Yes I am going. I have a very positive attitude this time around. (but I still have 6 days to change that, lol just kidding I'm going.) Thanks for checking, and I will post the proof if I make it. lol :hugs: Debbi

[webster2]

Awwwww Webster, I luv ya, thank you. hugs7 I'm really trying to think more positive, this time. My Son took off work, as did my daughter, and my husband will be right by my side. My little guy (not so little, will be there too!) I will be sure to tell them all my fears. (you make me crack up, cause I will be doing the same thing) I read that part and laughed. It's funny I changed the bedroom around, got new sheets, washed them, put them on, go new slippers, picked the favorite robe. (then I go I hope I get to sleep in these new sheets, my husband is like stop hon, you're going too) I am so lucky to have this man by my side, I don't know how he puts up with me. Did you feel like you where asleep forever, and when they woke you up how did you feel. I am lucky I have you, because by the time this comes on Fri. I will have bothered you with a million questions. SORRY, but thank you so much at the same time. :hugs: Debbi


Well, thanks! I am glad you are doing some preparations! Nice new sheets, a very good idea!

No, I felt like it was just a blink of an eye that I was out. I was groggy. I could hear them talking to me, but didn't want to open my eyes, just wanted a little rest! One asked what my pain level was, I never opened my eyes just used my fingers. Apparently, it worked he brought something. It wasn't that bad, I just wanted to nap for awhile. If you have given birth, you are tough and can handle this!

I am glad you have a good hubby and have gathered your troops to stand by!

Ask away. I am here still recuperating. If I can help I will be glad to! You are not a bother at all. Like I said earlier, lots of people will help you get through it.

Sleep well!

[anxiousme]

Webster, thank you amazingly I am still remaining pretty calm for me. Friday will be a different story I'm sure. I still say I put the sticky note on telling them, and reminding them of my fears lol. More nervous of the operation itself then anything now, and all the things that can go wrong. I just have to try and trust, but with these trust issues its tough. How are you feeling? Debbi

[webster2]

Hello, I am glad you are feeling calm. Keep holding on to that. I think that is completely normal to be concerned about the operation. Just make sure you tell them you need a little extra compassion. I think telling everyone, from the parking valet to all of the surgical folks, my concerns helped. Hang in there, your family is there with you. You have a ton of people here sending good vibes your way. Keep working away at your nest so it will be comfy for when you get home.

I feel great. I think the biggest thing is I am not jittery anymore,nor that out of control feeling. I feel calm. I can't tell you how long it has been since I have felt that way. I am not tired anymore. I sleep. My joints don't ache. My skin has improved. Palpitations are gone. My throat doesn't feel tight. I feel great!

I don't have much of an appetite but, I don't care. I could lose a few! I feel like my life has been given back to me! Yesterday, my grandson turned 1. I was able to participate, chase him, push him in his riding toy. I've been a spectator for so long it was wonderful to be in the game!


hugs!

[anxiousme]

Webster, you are adorable. Happy Birthday to the Grandbaby. Too cute! You are really doing good. I can't wait to be on the other side with you. Just want this over. I would still like to try to get in 1 more vacation before I am back to work, and my son is back in school, but I don't know how fast I will be able to something like that. I just pray all goes well, and I am back home in no time. :hugs: Debbi

[Andros]

Webster, you are adorable. Happy Birthday to the Grandbaby. Too cute! You are really doing good. I can't wait to be on the other side with you. Just want this over. I would still like to try to get in 1 more vacation before I am back to work, and my son is back in school, but I don't know how fast I will be able to something like that. I just pray all goes well, and I am back home in no time. :hugs: Debbi

All will go well, Debbi. Just hang in there and think about all the good things that are going to happen.

You know by now that we are all on your team and will be with you in prayer and spirit.

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[anxiousme]

Andros, you of all and many others have really stuck by me. I will never be able to thank you all enough for that. I am really hanging in there this time, I should have no problem getting this done. I know after many months of dwelling it's time. Looking forward to it being over, and the pampering for a wk. after much needed. Looking forward to just being able to sleep 1 night without picturing this. Looking forward to helping many others :sad0049: who struggle with surgery decisions, if I get through this, it's living proof any of us can do this. lol Just a couple more days and it will all be behind me. Thank you for being there in spirit, I hope that big guy above does see how many people are pulling for me, and gets me safely through this ordeal. Thank you again for being there, and I so look forward to telling my story when its over. :hugs: Debbi

[Andros]

Andros, you of all and many others have really stuck by me. I will never be able to thank you all enough for that. I am really hanging in there this time, I should have no problem getting this done. I know after many months of dwelling it's time. Looking forward to it being over, and the pampering for a wk. after much needed. Looking forward to just being able to sleep 1 night without picturing this. Looking forward to helping many others :sad0049: who struggle with surgery decisions, if I get through this, it's living proof any of us can do this. lol Just a couple more days and it will all be behind me. Thank you for being there in spirit, I hope that big guy above does see how many people are pulling for me, and gets me safely through this ordeal. Thank you again for being there, and I so look forward to telling my story when its over. :hugs: Debbi

Your strength is shining through. I knew the whole time you had it in you. We are all very proud of you and you will be the most perfect person to help and counsel others after what you personally have gone through.

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[anxiousme]

Andros, bless you, you are the best! It's really getting close now, tomm. is already Wednesday, and then Thursday, and then the fun begins, hugs4 I'm sure I will check in a couple more times before I go. Thank you, Debbi

[webster2]

Debbi, Guess what, I am going camping 2 weeks after the surgery. I feel that good! Since I am still off from work, we decided to do a little trip. We'll be looking to hear your story. Remember, you have a whole bunch of people praying & wishing you well! :)

[Andros]

Debbi, Guess what, I am going camping 2 weeks after the surgery. I feel that good! Since I am still off from work, we decided to do a little trip. We'll be looking to hear your story. Remember, you have a whole bunch of people praying & wishing you well! :)

Whoooooooooooooooooooooohoo!

[webster2]

Whoooooooooooooooooooooohoo!


Yup, I think so too!

[anxiousme]

I love you two! Webster your going camping that is what I want to do in a wk. if everything is ok. (luxury camping though) camper with all the comforts of home. We have not gone at all this summer and I am ready. Gives me something to look forward too. I am so proud of you, and I hope I feel as good as you when this is done. Now its Wednesday, just Thursday, and I go. They will call Tomorrow with the time, but I know It's going to be early. I said if you make it late I wont come. lol

[webster2]

I love you two! Webster your going camping that is what I want to do in a wk. if everything is ok. (luxury camping though) camper with all the comforts of home. We have not gone at all this summer and I am ready. Gives me something to look forward too. I am so proud of you, and I hope I feel as good as you when this is done. Now its Wednesday, just Thursday, and I go. They will call Tomorrow with the time, but I know It's going to be early. I said if you make it late I wont come. lol


Debbi, I think you will feel better. I felt awful before, so the only way to go was to feel better! Yup, we're taking our camper & kayaks for a little trip up north, just 2 days, to test how I am feeling. We hadn't gone all summer either....in fact, I hadn't done much of anything in a long time, but go to work, and press the couch :tongue0013:.

I said if you make it late I wont come.
I love this! Good for you! You need to advocate for yourself! Looking forward to you telling us your story! :hugs:

[JoJo]

Came to see when it was again that Debbi's big day is. I thought it was the end of next week, but nope. It's Friday?!! :party0009:

I wanted to let you know that I'll be thinking of ya girl!! You've gained strength on this journey and after your surgery you will be even stronger! :hugs:

Yesterday was 3 weeks since my surgery and I'm feeling pretty darn good!

Webster, I have found that when I wake in the morning I do feel quite rested. Before the surgery I would wake and still be groggy, no matter how much sleep I had. I think that if I didn't work on a computer all day I would have more energy ;)

I haven't seen my endo or surgeon yet since the surgery. I have bloodwork on August 31st and will meet with my surgeon the same day. That's my next step. I haven't heard yet as to whether or not I'll need the RAI. I'm hoping no considering all those lymph nodes they removed we NEGATIVE!! Me and my family are headed to the beach on Saturday for a whole week and I tell ya, I'm soooo looking forward to the ocean and it's healing energies.

Be positive Debbi!! That's what has got me through all this! hugs3

[anxiousme]

JoJo, you are doing so well! Good news! Thanks for checking up, yup tomorrow is the big day, little antsy today, but I think thats normal. Still have every intention on going. Waiting for the call on the time. (better be early) just going to clean the house, and get ready. Didn't sleep to good last night (like a trout flopping all over, my poor huibby) So when they do knock me out, I should be very tired. I will be glad to tell story when I'm back. Thanks for the support.
:hugs: Debbi

Webster, I want to go camping now! hugs4 Debbi

[Andros]

JoJo, you are doing so well! Good news! Thanks for checking up, yup tomorrow is the big day, little antsy today, but I think thats normal. Still have every intention on going. Waiting for the call on the time. (better be early) just going to clean the house, and get ready. Didn't sleep to good last night (like a trout flopping all over, my poor huibby) So when they do knock me out, I should be very tired. I will be glad to tell story when I'm back. Thanks for the support.
:hugs: Debbi

Webster, I want to go camping now! hugs4 Debbi

Thunk! And you are out. Pleasant dreams! When you wake up you are going to be ready to go dancing!

And whatta' story she is going to have!! We cannot wait!

Many hugs..........................

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[anxiousme]

Andros, you are adorable! Just a little longer now, Have to be there at 6:15 they are not messing around. I'm anxious, and ready. I will be back as fast as I can. I can't wait to be at that point. Thank you to all who have walked me through these long months of pondering this surgery. You have helped me prepare for something I did not think I could conquer. Now its not over yet, but I feel ready, more ready than ever. Thank you for all the prayers, I really needed them, and still do. :hugs: Debbi

[anxiousme]

Hi guys still here not my fault this time. Office called Doctor had a family emergency, had to cancel. They offered me his partner who has no bed side manner, I declined that one. I waited this long I can wait a couple more days. Sad though, I am anxious to get this out, and very ready. I let you guys know when I hear something. Hang in there, it should be in the next couple days thank you .:hugs: Debbi

[Andros]

JoJo, you are doing so well! Good news! Thanks for checking up, yup tomorrow is the big day, little antsy today, but I think thats normal. Still have every intention on going. Waiting for the call on the time. (better be early) just going to clean the house, and get ready. Didn't sleep to good last night (like a trout flopping all over, my poor huibby) So when they do knock me out, I should be very tired. I will be glad to tell story when I'm back. Thanks for the support.
:hugs: Debbi

Webster, I want to go camping now! hugs4 Debbi

Debbi; you are deeply in my thoughts today. See you soon!

[SnoodMama]

Nooooooo way! When will it be rescheduled. I can't believe this!!!! You are having to go through this process of anticipation so many times. Anyway, sleep well tonight.

[Andros]

Hi guys still here not my fault this time. Office called Doctor had a family emergency, had to cancel. They offered me his partner who has no bed side manner, I declined that one. I waited this long I can wait a couple more days. Sad though, I am anxious to get this out, and very ready. I let you guys know when I hear something. Hang in there, it should be in the next couple days thank you .:hugs: Debbi

We are here for you when you need us. Sure have had a lot of "stops and go's " with this one! Hey; it's a world record. Guiness Book here you come!

[anxiousme]

Andros, This is a world record, I will be able to write a book when this ends, not just tell a story. To top it off this isn't going to go on anytime soon, do to I have the Doctor who is going in with me,(cause I'm a chicken) and he can only do the Friday surgery, not the Monday, and there are no Friday's available for awhile, and then he is going on vacation 1 of the wks. I just want to cry, now I am ready, and still can't get it out. :sad0049: Half of me is mad because they should be able to fit me in fast, cause they canceled me. (but then I feel sorry do to his situation) but the other half is my fault because I'm a baby and have to have the Doc with me, which makes it more difficult. So I hold my head high, get it worked out, hang in there, and when it happens, it happens.
Thank you Debbi

[seastan67]

DEB----DONT LOOSE SIGHT OF THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL- HAVE THE SURGERY-:confused0018: THINKING OF YOU ,TAKE IT EASY XX TAN:hugs:

[anxiousme]

Tan, luv ya I wont! I'm ready just waiting for the day.

[Rebecca1986]

So.........Do we have a count on the number of hours til surgery!!

How are you feeling??

Hugs!!!

Becky

[anxiousme]

Becky, you are so sweet for checking in on me. Nothing yet...........if this isn't already driving me crazy, this waiting around is making me more nuts! I hate this, can't wait til its over. How are you feeling? Do you regret having the surgery? :hugs: Debbi PS (glad your back, good timing, lots of us here need your expertise on this. especially me, thank you)

[JoJo]

Debbi!! What the ...heck?!! I came to see how you were feeling girl and make sure you were recuperating well and resting up.

Regret having surgery? No way... why would I want cancer growing in my neck :( I know you didn't ask me, but I had to put in my 2 cents. :hugs:

I go for my follow up and blood work next week; hoping for lots of good news.
I'll check back again soon!
Love,
Jo

[seastan67]

Whats going on over ther Deb, Update please.... I am ready to come over there and smakck your bum><><:tongue0015:

[seastan67]

Whats going on over ther Deb, Update please.... I am ready to come over there and smack your bum><><:tongue0015:

[seastan67]

Hello, Deb, where have you gone , is everything ok>? you know I am only joking about coming over there to smack your behind. :hugs:

[anxiousme]

Tan, I'm here and nothing has changed. I was on there cancellation list, and they wanted to re-schedule, and I didn't. I was so ready that day, and they bursted my bubble. I just needed to step away from this for a bit. I have an appt. with the endo on Sept 29th. I have never been to one of them yet. It was straight from my family Doc to the Surgeon. Then I will go from there. We had gone away just my husband and I, and we had to come home 2 days later do to hurricane, then we had no electric for 2 days, went away again when everything was back to norm. Then came back and a tropical storm came, and flooded our basement really bad. My mom had a stroke, and is now blind in one eye, and I am back to work, schools back, so it's just been a real mess. This is really the first time I've had time to check in on everyone. Glad you and Jo, are so well. I will join you someday, when..............I don't know, but someday. Probably deserve that smack at this point. Thanks Tan tty soon. :hugs: Debbi